I feel like I've been through major trauma in the past

[binchilling]

I feel like I have so much more than the trauma I had as a child, How can I learn because I obsess so much about it. And I'm afraid that this obsession will cause me false memories. My family has always been kind and cherishing me, but I can't help but be suspicious. What if I went through much more serious abuse as a child and didn't know it? I don't have amnesia, I remember my childhood. But I seriously fear that I may have been abused. What do you think

 

[LivB]

What makes you think you were?

 

[Rose White]

OCD with ruminating thoughts might be a good place to investigate. I didn’t knew I had PTSD until I had been managing my OCD and suspected Borderline for decades. OCD treatment brings you in contact with CBT and is an excellent way to face the kinds of symptoms you seem to be experiencing. My suggestion is not to be a detective but rather to face your symptoms as they are.

 

[Friday]

OCD with ruminating thoughts might be a good place to investigate.

Very much ^^^this^^^

ESP as you already have a diagnosis of anxiety w/ obsessive features / obsessive personality… which is a precursor to an OCD diagnosis often given to kids/teens as they may grow “out” or “into” a formal OCD Dx.

Trauma, like your mother attempting suicide, is one of those things that will definitely exacerbate pre-existing conditions (like anxiety & compulsive/obsessive thoughts / behaviours) … but only maaaaaaaaybe kick start another disorder entirely.

Working with a therapist who focuses on adolescents & young adults, and specialises in anxiety & ocd & childhood trauma (a very common series of specialties) would …hands down… be my best recommendation for you to find clarity & traction. <<< They would also be the best qualified to know if what you’re dealing with is absolutely spot on anxiety/obsessions/ocd -or- if it looks like you might have more going on. As they would know what’s absolutely normal for people with anxiety & ocd dealing with trauma to be struggling with, and what’s not.

Same token?

HOW people respond to “normal” things is often indicative OF a disorder being on board. For example? The way ADHD’ers & HFA people respond to completely normal sensory stuff? Is the same way neurotypical people tend to respond to being hit by a car, or attacked by a swarm of bees. That doesn’t make the evil shirt a traumatic event, even if one’s body/heart/mind is reacting as if it is. Anxiety + Obsessive features = there may be a whooooooole helluva lot in your life that it’s frankly astonishing you’ve managed so well, or no wonder you’re struggling with, because of the disorders you already know you have… that someone without those disorders? Wouldn’t understand why it’s a deal at all, much less a big deal. Again, that’s something that an expert in anxiety & OCD would spot a mile out, and be able to help you identify & process.

 

[binchilling]

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Very much ^^^this^^^

ESP as you already have a diagnosis of anxiety w/ obsessive features / obsessive personality… which is a precursor to an OCD diagnosis often given to kids/teens as they may grow “out” or “into” a formal OCD Dx.

Trauma, like your mother attempting suicide, is one of those things that will definitely exacerbate pre-existing conditions (like anxiety & compulsive/obsessive thoughts / behaviours) … but only maaaaaaaaybe kick start another disorder entirely.

Working with a therapist who focuses on adolescents & young adults, and specialises in anxiety & ocd & childhood trauma (a very common series of specialties) would …hands down… be my best recommendation for you to find clarity & traction. <<< They would also be the best qualified to know if what you’re dealing with is absolutely spot on anxiety/obsessions/ocd -or- if it looks like you might have more going on. As they would know what’s absolutely normal for people with anxiety & ocd dealing with trauma to be struggling with, and what’s not.

Same token?

HOW people respond to “normal” things is often indicative OF a disorder being on board. For example? The way ADHD’ers & HFA people respond to completely normal sensory stuff? Is the same way neurotypical people tend to respond to being hit by a car, or attacked by a swarm of bees. That doesn’t make the evil shirt a traumatic event, even if one’s body/heart/mind is reacting as if it is. Anxiety + Obsessive features = there may be a whooooooole helluva lot in your life that it’s frankly astonishing you’ve managed so well, or no wonder you’re struggling with, because of the disorders you already know you have… that someone without those disorders? Wouldn’t understand why it’s a deal at all, much less a big deal. Again, that’s something that an expert in anxiety & OCD would spot a mile out, and be able to help you identify & process.

Thank you so much, I also have OCD and Anxiety diagnosis. But my T never stalked about my trauma, even he didnt ask me lol. I thought if I share my story with who have ptsd they wil help. I think I have another major trauma cause I also have disossiciative symptoms like dpdr, and this also actually start with other disossiciative disorders like DID or OSDD. And I search a lot about this shit, I cant stop thinking about it ( nearly half of a day). Due to this i feel like i lost my identity. I feel very empty. I dont know who really I am.

 

[binchilling]

I also read somewhere that some victims do not remember their trauma, which makes me Anxious

 

[Rose White]

I search a lot about this shit, I cant stop thinking about it ( nearly half of a day). Due to this i feel like i lost my identity. I feel very empty. I dont know who really I am.

I think this might be something helpful to share with your therapist. Could jumpstart a conversation about your concerns and current state.

 

[Friday]

I think this might be something helpful to share with your therapist. Could jumpstart a conversation about your concerns and current state.

Agreed.

Thank you so much, I also have OCD and Anxiety diagnosis. But my T never stalked about my trauma, even he didnt ask me lol.

Most disorders are “big enough” that unless you’re doing a very in-depth intake with a new therapist? Or new trauma happens when you’re already in therapy? Or you bring it up yourself? Therapists stay focused on “why” you’re in therapy, to begin with, IE the disorder/condition you have, that they specialize in.

Even if they DO know? Unless you are exhibiting symptoms above & beyond what’s normal for your disorder + trauma, or they ALSO specialise in trauma affecting their client base, they’ll usually refer you onto a therapist who switch hits (your disorder + trauma), or recommend you see a trauma specialist in addition to your work with them.

Okay, I wrote that, and it’s confusing even me. So let me try again, for clarity, from a first person perspective:

I have ADHD, in addition to PTSD.

When I’m doing therapy for ADHD, if my trauma history comes up (usually doesn’t) my T’s will do 1:3 things

1. Continue to treat me for ADHD, as I’m responding to trauma in completely normal ways for someone with ADHD.
2. Refer me onto a therapist who specializes in both ADHD & Trauma, if they themselves are not qualified to do both.
3. Refer me onto a therapist who specialises in trauma, whilst they continue with the ADHD work, so they tag team; T1 for ADHD, T2 for Trauma, and share notes between themselves.

^^^ You’ll note I did NOT say ‘PTSD Therapist’ because only a smallish percentage of people experiencing trauma go onto develop PTSD. PTSD is just one of many many many things that may or may not develop with trauma.

 

[binchilling]

Agreed.


Most disorders are “big enough” that unless you’re doing a very in-depth intake with a new therapist? Or new trauma happens when you’re already in therapy? Or you bring it up yourself? Therapists stay focused on “why” you’re in therapy, to begin with, IE the disorder/condition you have, that they specialize in.

Even if they DO know? Unless you are exhibiting symptoms above & beyond what’s normal for your disorder + trauma, or they ALSO specialise in trauma affecting their client base, they’ll usually refer you onto a therapist who switch hits (your disorder + trauma), or recommend you see a trauma specialist in addition to your work with them.

Okay, I wrote that, and it’s confusing even me. So let me try again, for clarity, from a first person perspective:

I have ADHD, in addition to PTSD.

When I’m doing therapy for ADHD, if my trauma history comes up (usually doesn’t) my T’s will do 1:3 things

1. Continue to treat me for ADHD, as I’m responding to trauma in completely normal ways for someone with ADHD.
2. Refer me onto a therapist who specializes in both ADHD & Trauma, if they themselves are not qualified to do both.
3. Refer me onto a therapist who specialises in trauma, whilst they continue with the ADHD work, so they tag team; T1 for ADHD, T2 for Trauma, and share notes between themselves.

^^^ You’ll note I did NOT say ‘PTSD Therapist’ because only a smallish percentage of people experiencing trauma go onto develop PTSD. PTSD is just one of many many many things that may or may not develop with trauma.

What does the development of Ptsd depend on? Is the severity of the trauma variable or does it have to be x trauma?

 

[Friday]

What does the development of Ptsd depend on?

No one knows why some people get PTSD from life threatening trauma or sexual assault, and others don’t. Most others, the overwhelming majority in point of fact, don’t. The conservative estimate is only 1 in 5 will go on to develop PTSD.

That doesn’t mean that the rest are unaffected by trauma. To the contrary, people often suffer far more profound effects than PTSD, &/or develop different disorders or conditions. PTSD is just one possible result of surviving life threatening trauma or sexual violence.

Is the severity of the trauma variable or does it have to be x trauma?

Nope, neither.

Put 10 people through the exact same trauma, and end up with 10 different diagnoses.

 

[binchilling]

No one knows why some people get PTSD from life threatening trauma or sexual assault, and others don’t. Most others, the overwhelming majority in point of fact, don’t. The conservative estimate is only 1 in 5 will go on to develop PTSD.

That doesn’t mean that the rest are unaffected by trauma. To the contrary, people often suffer far more profound effects than PTSD, &/or develop different disorders or conditions. PTSD is just one possible result of surviving life threatening trauma or sexual violence.


Nope, neither.

Put 10 people through the exact same trauma, and end up with 10 different diagnoses.

I read that 70% of people have experienced trauma, even if this does not mean that 70% have ptsd or another disorder, you say they are seriously affected, right?; And does my condition resemble any dissociative disorder or is it OCD? I'm about to go crazy thinking what if my therapist isn't wrong and I have a serious disorder like OSDD oR DID

 

[Friday]

I'm about to go crazy thinking what if my therapist isn't wrong and I have a serious disorder like OSDD oR DID

1. You have TWO serious disorders; Anxiety & OCD.

I read that 70% of people have experienced trauma, even if this does not mean that 70% have ptsd or another disorder, you say they are seriously affected, right?

2. Of that 70-80%, apx 20% develop PTSD. Others? Develop things like GAD, OCD, Sleep Disorders, Eating Disorders, Mood Disorders, etc… AND no disorder whatsoever.

And does my condition resemble any dissociative disorder or is it OCD?

3. You’d need to ask your therapist, this. Or another qualified diagnostician with full access to your medical records & in person assessments. No one on the interwebz could even begin to give you an accurate differential diagnosis.