I hate i hate i hate

[IamFree]

I hate it that some people are never going to stop being stupid and unintelligent and I am the one that has to change and accept it.

I hate it that some people seemingly have everything and alls I have left is my dignity and they still want to take that from me.

I hate it that your damned if you do and damned if you don't if you don't if you speak out your called a victim or told to lighten up if you keep your self to your self your called arrogant

I hate it that through know choice of my own I was taken away to a far away planet then dumped back on earth and I am expected just to be like everyone else.

I hate it that I am the one who is doing things differently and whats best for my health and I get called weird.

I hate it that I get looked at and treated like I was the one who commited all the crimes.

I hate it that my legs were broken and I was dropped in the shit and told to swim hard and fast

I hate knowing that there is nothing wrong with me there was only something wrong with what happened to me but I am called mad

I HATE I HATE I HATE THE INJUSTICE CALLED PTSD

I hate that it is who I am

 

[IamFree]

but I will learn how to accept it is who I am

 

[Nevermore]

"...taken to a faraway planet then dumped back on earth and I am expected to just be like everyone else..."
That's such a good description of how it feels.
I know this is off topic, but do you write? something about how you express yourself - j don't know, it's almost poetic.
Yep. There was something wrong with what happened to me too, but I think that's confronting for people. They prefer to think there's s reason it happened to you so they can feel safe that it won't happen to them!
It's true.
Sadly, I know because before it happened to me I think I did too ):
Shameful
Glad I see more clearly now
And yep. I hate it too!

 

[Killashandra]

Ptsd is not WHO you are, at least I hope not or we're all screwed..

But I get it, I hate that I missed my childhood, I hate that I have to deal with this every day while those perpetrators go about their days without a thought of me... and the injustice they have done to me

I hate that I have to struggle everyday to keep from going bananas

I hate the way it makes me feel, and how I can't fix everything...

I hate that I've been conditioned and molded to believe I am worthless

I hate missing out on life and that my Lil family have to suffer along with me.

I hate that I have put my husband through hell and back and hell again.. I hate myself for that.

I absolutely detest my reflection.

And I hate the most, the conversations I have missed becasue I was triggered and my alters took over... I never know what I actually said,becasue rosy colored glasses say I said something different.

However, I love this forum and the outlet of expression it gives me.

I love being able to empathize with others and share a connection if only for a moment.

I love the insight and knowledge from working on recovery as hard as it is and that it stagnants occasionally

I love being able to take a moment each day and bask in the glory of life. The heat from the sun, the soft glow of moonlight, the coolness of the breeze, the way a river runs and knowing that, that breeze, that water , those rays, they all have landed and touched the most beautiful places on earth at some stage on thier travels... and then little me sees and feels and smells those as it passes me on its continous journey..