I Have Been Going Through A Hard Time Lately

[Wolvescry]

So many flashbacks, sadness and shame. I have been reading in on flashbacks and I read that having lots of flashbacks is actually healthy. It shows healing has begun. But it hurt. It hurt. It hurts. It hurts, so much to relive. I want it to stop, that all I want, I just want my brain to stop, to go easy. Nobody understands, I just want to feel sane, I want to stop feeling it happen over and over, I am scared, I am paranoid, I am hurt. My mind races to much.

I have been safe for years with my lover. He has done so much for me. And now my brain is telling me to process. But it is so unbelievably hard. my mind and body is exhausted.

 

[RussH]

Wolvescry, you posted this about a month ago, and I just wanted to see how you are doing now? I really hope you are doing better, and I truly hope the healing is coming and you are beginning to sense some peace in your life.
Rest well my friend.

 

[Wolvescry]

Thank you for checking in on me, I have been pretty busy lately. I started emdr therapy and I feel hopeful about it, and have been using other methods to cope. I still struggle greatly, but I manage. I feel hope now, and thats all I can really hold on to.

 

[RussH]

I feel hope now, and thats all I can really hold on to.

Hold on to the fact that you also have friends here on the forum that care about you.

 

[Wolvescry]

That was really sweet, thank you so much, I will hold on to that too