Relationship I Hold Guilt... And I Want Him To Know I Care

[Nelson2015]

He was actually in the military and he got hurt in Afghanistan. He wears a bracelet in memory of a friend that he had lost while over there. I have never asked about it. But after going through some old stuff he left on my computer I found a speech he had written for his speech class about his hero. The person on his bracelet was who he wrote about. He never told me the story of his bracelet and I never asked.

He left me bc of his PTSD. I could never understand what he went through. But now I hold guilt. I should have asked more questions... It seemed like I didn't care looking back. I was also physical with him during a few fights while together and I have been feeling guilt about that. No one deserves that but especially someone who went through more than I can imagine... More than he has ever told me. I would never do that now... Something positive came from him leaving me... I have learned how to handle anger.

I really want to tell him about what I found on my computer so I can let him know I care. Maybe apologize for not being there for him like I feel I should have been. Idk if it's a good idea though... What if he doesn't want to talk to me for bringing it up

 

[Stickler]

I don't know, really.
I got an apology from my ex-wife, it was gratifying in some ways, but...so much pain there she caused and never apologized for?
She never will, so...* shrug *

Were I you I'd email an apology, not expect anything back?
I seem to leave relationships with a lot of raw, dangling feelings that I don't want woken up.
...other people may vary, but your relationship was not a good one.

 

[Nelson2015]

We still talk and hang out though... We still have an okay relationship friend wise. We purely broke up bc of his PTSD... Not bc of our issues. We were working in those with some success. @Stickler