I Just Don't Understand!

[tigrou465]

I just don't understand why the sad feeling and mood kepts on coming back! On november 9, I did finished the serie of ECT treatment that help me get better from depression. Each time I get better, something comes up and just makes me feel bad... Like financial problems arise and then I start to feel anxious, I worry and I start to feel down. It's like a bad news comes and spoiled the good time I start to have... I can't take a "break" from life... autorized myself to have a good moment or to just buy something that will make me happy... nothing too fancy or expensive and then BANG something irritante comes and it turns to a mess... I'm tired, feed up.. I just can't do it anymore. I wish I had a break, a time off that would help me built my energy. I feel like a used battery that has been on charge so many time that it can't be fully charge anymore. It just charge itself a bit and then when it's used it doesn't last... I don't even know if what I'm writing makes sense... I feel so down, hopeless. No one can "fix" my "battery", nothing can help my battery to charge fully... I'm just so so tired of life.....