Childhood I Just Need Some Advice From People Who Understand X

[pugsnotdrugs]

I feel.so confused and overhwlemed ATM my brain feels so overloaded there's missing gaps I was sexually abused when I was little and ATM I'm awaiting to see if my case will go to trail and I've been waiting along time now and it feels like forever. I feel so confused there's been new things I remember it's just i remember there being abit of blood but I'm just not sure what from I don't know why or when? I just I remembered seeing it and it's a memory it's just I'm scared beacause there's so many things all jumbled up is this normal ? Everything been so bitty and missing gaps I just feel so trapped and alone

 

[Freedomfighter]

I feel.so confused and overhwlemed ATM my brain feels so overloaded there's missing gaps I was sex...

Write down everything, everything even if that particular memory does not make much sense. These sporadic memories with just little tiny bits of rememberings are typical of sexual abuse survivors. I had those same type of memories too, just small tiny bits of information that told me just enough that there was something that was not quite right in my childhood. It makes sense because the brain of a child is in a developmental stage so memories can often not be accurately and completely recalled later on.

But these memories are a very important insight to trauma. I remember those small intrusive memories, sights, furnishings in the room where the assault took place, the laughing of the predators, their strong scents. When I first started to go into that memory stage my mind was so totally overloaded, it was extremely painful.