I Know Another One.

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Well yes I have been drinking. Sorry about that. I do good when I am at work Bc I am so busy. My mind is occupied but the minute I drive home I miss her. I have tried to even go on a date but I backed out. I don't know what to do. I will never see j ever again. And I can't get her out of my head my heart please I wish I could. I know another poor tom post. I am sorry. Sunday is my birthday and she had plans for it. So it hurts. I am sorry. I am just very don right now. This sucks

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

I hate the amount of white vans in this area. Everyone of them ramp my anxiety every time.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

I am getting a room tonight get away and be invisible. Tomorrow is my birthday and I don't care about it at all. Its not how I want to spend it.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

In the room with a great ocean view. A little crown and coke to ease the pain of how this birthday could have been. Everyone I am sorry for my whining I just had everything going for me and I screwed it up. I am going to enclose an ocean pic. This is my safe place. I just wish I could share with the love of my life. I am so sorry.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Well yes I have been drinking. Sorry about that. I do good when I am at work Bc I am so busy. My mind is occupied but the minute I drive home I miss her. I have tried to even go on a date but I backed out. I don't know what to do. I will never see j ever again. And I can't get her out of my head my heart please I wish I could. I know another poor tom post. I am sorry. Sunday is my birthday and she had plans for it. So it hurts. I am sorry. I am just very don right now. This sucks

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

I got a great birthday gift. She talked to me. Had to tell me how bad I am and what a piece of crap I am. Happy birthday to me. I am very down.

 

[Friday]

Do you really want to be with someone who calls you up on your birthday to ream your ass?

I'm thinking this might be a bit of a gift, after all, even if it sucks in the moment. Every time my ex pulls another stunt it's like I can feel the round whistling past. Yes, baby. Thank you for another reason to be glad I'm not with you.

If you're in the hotel, order up a steak. Do something nice for yourself.

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

Thanks man

 

[Sleeping Dragon]

Listen my Brother, and believe that this is the first day of the rest of your life. What you do with that day, and the moment at hand determines what that life will be like.

If this lady doesn't help get you to a better place (and it sure looks like she doesn't) then it's time to let her go. I see a beatuful beach outside your window. Don't look at it through the window. Get out there,.

If a walk on the beach helps then you've found something to hang onto. If it doesn't, try something else. Catch a fish. Go to the gym. Buy a motorcycle, and ride the shit out of it.............................

My first year back I got active in full contact judo. It gave me a chance to kick the shit out of somebody and not go to jail. There are things, lots of things, for you too. But, you gotta look for them. They're not going to come knocking on your door.

This is NOT a pep talk or criticism. I'm simply passing on ideas that haven't occurred to you. That's because all you're focused on is this lady. She's a trap. Stay out of that trap.

SD

 

[thomas.robinson.54966]

You are right brother. The beach is it today

 

[combatgoldfish]

Cut the ties man. There's so many amazing women out there. Delete her number, change your number if need be. Reschedule that date and get out of your shell.

If you say she comes here and reads you pouring your heart out then makes you feel like shit on your birthday, f*ck her. And that's me putting it nicely.

Dealing with PTSD is bad enough on it's own, even worse when you're with a toxic girl.

 

[atilla]

I completely agree CGF. I took the advice you just gave going on 4 years ago. There are women out there that will stand beside you with despite the beast. My wife reminds me of the queen of Sparta in "300", with her attitude toward the beast. You'll find someone with your best interest at heart, and you'll know when you do. In the meantime, make your life about you right now. Stay strong Brother.