I Made It Through The Writers Residential

[NatBird]

Hi All

Think I posted a while back about being accepted on a development scheme for talented poets. Part of the scheme was a week long residential with 12 other poets, f*ck it - human beings. Plus the tutors and director. We were all sharing a house, eating together, with each other for over 12 hours per day. This was im high contract to spending 90% of my days alone and the last 18 months or so in bed or scurrying out the flat when anxiety levels permitted. It was excruciating and really jangled my whole system but I got through it!

I'm in recovery now. Sounds dramatic but I feel f*cked!

 

[shimmerz]

It was excruciating and really jangled my whole system but I got through it!

Wow NatBird! Unbelievably brave! Congratulations. Please allow yourself to decompress. I can't even imagine having been able to get through that. You are an absolute STAR! :hug:

 

[Missycat]

Hey @NatBird , well done and congrats.
Wot an achievement :tup:

Your post made me smile :)

Now get some rest x
MC

 

[NatBird]

Hey @NatBird , well done and congrats.
Wot an achievement :tup:

Your post made me...

@Missycat cheers:) Yes I will try.

 

[NatBird]

Wow NatBird! Unbelievably brave! Congratulations. Please allow yourself to decompress. I can't eve...

@shimmerz thank you for the big up. To be honest I don't know how I got through it. I certainly abandoned myself a bit in some ways with self care: didn't meditate as much or do qi gong or stick to strict diet. However, I was more available to me as I noticed when I wanted to withdraw, totally shrink and worked really hard to stay tuned in. Thanks again:)

 

[Sandstone]

Well done, both on getting through the week and on being tuned in to your needs. Can you give yourself a few quiet days now?

 

[NatBird]

i have a bunch of deadlines so i can give myself some space but need to be organised and that is a challenge at the best of times!
i've spent today lying in bed, reading and doing a write up. maybe that's how it will have to be for a few days although I'm meant to travel to another city for a workshop tomorrow. I feel like if I don't go I'm wasting my resoyrces and not taking myself seriously. And if I do go I'll be a bumbling wreck!
thanks for your support and the question. it made me think practically about how to recover!

 

[NatBird]

@Sandstone see above

 

[aut555]

That is amazing, complete strangers, holy cow. And you survived this. That means there must be more success coming up, this was just a precursor to successful conventions, booksignings, etc.......