Relationship I Miss His Kissess..

[Prettysmile]

And I want it all back.. Thats all. Today was one of those days I couldn't stop thinking of my sufferer. We've gone our separate ways. I know I could see him if I want but i'm afraid it will go bad again. But when things are good their great. I want the great times back..

 

[Miss Amber]

I want it all back with my sufferer, even the bad times. He left me and the emptiness I feel will never go away. Not even with time. I miss everything.

 

[Fender]

I feel your pain. I'm having difficulty with everything in the house, in the town, in my life . . . that reminds me that my husband is not there. Its also painful to realize that at this point, he doesn't really remember the good times, or isn't able to remember how intensely we loved each other, because now he doesn't feel much of anything but frustration and anger.

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[Jason111]

I feel your pain. Time and space will eventually heal -

J

 

[Prettysmile]

I want it all back with my sufferer, even the bad times. He left me and the emptiness I feel will never go away. Not even with time. I miss everything.

I feel this way the more and more time passes. I thought time would heal a broken heart. He has not contacted me in almost a month. I tried reaching out to him a few times but he doesnt answer the phone anymore. No text messages or anything. Our last argument was pretty bad. I wished him a happy veterans day last week he did atleast respond with a simple "Thank you". That lets me know that he has read all my messages. I guess he will come around when he is ready to be "friends" again.

 

[Prettysmile]

((((((Fender)))))))))) Lets pray that he will remember one day. I've heard stories where they have come around. Stay positive.

 

[Nicolette]

I want it all back with my sufferer, even the bad times. He left me and the emptiness I feel will never go away. Not even with time. I miss everything.

With the best intentions at heart - do you really? Seriously? If you do have you considered you may be co-dependent as, even while I am married to a PTSD Sufferer, I wouldn't want to wish any of the bad times back on either of us.

You might like to read [DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/carers-co-dependency-information.8894/[/DLMURL].

I appreciate your loss, sorrow and the emptiness you must feel as the loss of any relationship is difficult..... I just wouldn't wish the bad times back.... :eek:

 

[JennJenn]

I wish I could have our relationship back as well. The good times were so amazing, but I don't want the bad times back because I feel guilty that he suffers. I feel like it is not fair of me to ask him to keep pushing and ultimately hurting for my happiness. Letting go is hard, and not something any of us want. If we truly love our sufferer we need to ask "What is best for them?"

 

[ds112496]

I just finished going thru a box of old photos that never got put in an album. It was tough to fight back the tears. Especially when I found the ones of his first deployment homecoming. I won't get to be there for his homecoming this time. I watched him get on the bus to go, but won't get a happy reunion when he gets back. I feel so cheated!

Today I want him to feel some of the pain he is causing me. I want him to miss me the way I miss him. Guess I am having one of the bad days where I wish I could turn back time. I have to believe that tomorrow will be better.

 

[StrongHeart]

ds, please don't wish him pain! Trust me, his pain is already immeasurable.

 

[ds112496]

Easier said than done. From his behavior he doesn't seem to be hurting at all. Actually it looks like he is happy living the single life. I am the farthest thing from his mind and the pain he has caused, and continues to cause, is causing me immeasurable pain. After almost 17 years of marriage I deserve more respect and dignity than he is giving me.