I Realize That I

[Paladin_141]

I'm probably never going 'home'.

 

[VioletButterfly]

I need the structure provided by practicing healthy thinking and decision making, and by practicing healthy behaviors in order to move forward in a healthier way with this life. I'm really inconsistent in all three areas and want to at least improve the effort even if I don't feel well or capable, it's time to work on the "work-arounds" again. Something is better than nothing. (I'm putting perfection/all-or-nothing in the corner with this. She and Baby can play checkers.)

 

[parrotthepolly]

I've been a horrible person recently and have not suffered enough.

 

[Rose White]

still have life inside me that’s mine

 

[Paladin_141]

I don't know who I am.

This place is a nightmare, but also everything I ever dreamed of. I'm a monster.

 

[8888]

I realize I am still up in the air about whether or not to try another therapist

 

[parrotthepolly]

I am extremely unwell and need to stay away from people.

 

[Rose White]

I find comfort in books. Not even necessarily reading them. I find myself carrying a book in my bag or keeping them near me in every room on the house or on my desk at work. Idk why just knowing they are there is comforting.

 

[Paladin_141]

Become very attached to people - especially women - very quickly and that this does not work in my favour.

 

[Paladin_141]

Saw a missile slam into the middle of a city and didn't run toward the explosion to help.

The best part of me is dead.

 

[parrotthepolly]

Absolutely need to stop messing around.

 

[Teasel]

I can let go a lot more than I used to be able to.
Feels good.
I'm aware it's a good bit down to my life situation being a lot less desperate than it was.
Grateful.