I started having flashbacks and i blacked out

[BrokenMess]

I'm 16, I was raped while staying in a behavioural health center for depression back in January. Yesterday I had a major flashback It was so overwhelming... I could feel him on top of me, I could feel the pain, I could hear the noises and smell the smells. It got to the point where I just shut down. I blacked out and whenever I finally came to I had cut my thigh all up. I was four months clean but I relapsed and have cut myself several times since yesterday. My parents think I'm possessed. I know that I am not but the whole blacking out and cutting thing terrifies me... What if I black out and attempt suicide. I have a hard time with this. Has this ever happened to anyone else?

 

[mrsmegan]

I have not had it happen to me, but I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am that happened to you. I will also say that it certainly does not sound out of the realm of normal for flashbacks and dissociation. Try to stay grounded, be kind to yourself.

(hugs) if you accept.

 

[aseaofknowing69]

I'm 16, I was raped while staying in a behavioural health center for depression back in January. Yes...

hi i'm so sorry..know what you are going through my own father abused me in every way imaginable and when i got the first flashback it was like he was right there..stay strong you fight through this and remember no matter what you are in control now.it took me a long time to be able to live with this i let all my anger go and now i am happier not saying i'm fine but happier you just need positive people around you and keep away from anyone negative and you will find your power again prayers to you and stay up please.if you want to talk i'm here just message me if you are up to it or when or whatevs...peace..respect