mxmiserable
New Here
so, yea. for anyone who has seen or remembers my last posts, i made an Instagram and tried to talk with my ex. im a f*cking dumbass. i still think we can solve things, like f*cking sexually assaulting me it's just "a talk" we need to have to make all this pain go away. i genuinely have the best intentions, i just want to be in okay terms with her and to make everything okay again. i want to have a chill talk about what hurt us, accepting our past, recognizing our mistakes and moving on. but maybe it's time to accept that will never happen. she'll always hate me for telling her the truth about how i feel :( and there's nothing i can do to convince her that she indeed, made a lot of harm. i deleted the messages and deactivated the account, i feel so freaking stupid. maybe im being to hard of myself, but i dont even know where the impulse came from. i don't know how but i seriously wanna improve on controlling my bpd impulses. that was such a stupid idea AGHHH im so dumb dumb stupid