I Want To Quit Therapy

[shell]

I can totally relate to not wanting to face it, but running away hasn't helped me, it just keeps leaking out all over the place.

It's just means instead I'm left trying to start again to build a relationship that will help me face it, more expense, more time and prolonging the pain. I just wasn't stable enough to deal with it, and felt too pressured.

Going in and out of denial for me is part of the process, facing the truth and seeing the lies is never easy. If only I had had a therapist I felt really comfortable with, they aren't easy to find.

 

[safenow]

I kissed a few frogs along the way. :D

LOL. That's a good way of putting it. In the course of my life, I've kissed a few frogs myself.

Since you have a good therapist, hang on to them. They are worth more than gold. In my humble opinion, out of every 100 therapist only 1 or 2 are any good. The rest take your money and don't really solve any problems. They might convince you they are your friend, but you know what? You don't need them to be your friend. You need them to teach you how to cope and help you process what you've been through in a safe way so in time you can stand alone and know what to do when life kicks you in the stomach.

Just my .02.

 

[WillyKat]

Agree with Hashi. Good therapists don't grow on trees. And they are in high demand. If you have one, keep her.

But I would tell your therapist how you're feeling. Maybe devote a whole session to the topic of how to pace your therapy.

I've said this a number of times: you can only run away from this so long before you get tired and finally taken by the demons. You can only wallow in it so long before it sucks all the life out of you. The only way is to turn and fight it out, and that is very, very hard.

Hang in there!

 

[Ayasha]

Thank you all. This has reminded me of how lucky I am to have such a great therapist and I do know she cares about me (if not, I think she would have sent me away by now).

And I am going to talk to her as soon as I can about how we pace our sessions for many reasons: one main one is that I get overloaded in many of our sessions and shut down halfway through. I saw her Monday and that made me feel a bit better but I am still very frustrated which may be my semi-subconscious way of trying to get out of continuing. Definitely something to bring up to her.

 

[Abstract]

Definitely something to bring up to her.

You sound like you are on the right track. Maybe you need to slow down and have more grounding inbetween. Having the discussion with her sounds very wise. Good luck.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I think therapy should be all about getting stronger and more stable. Otherwise, what's the purpose of going?

I work a lot in therapy, but it took learning grounding skills and small talk to build a relationship before we could even start on the trauma. Now I'm in such physical pain that we are stabilizing and doing some small talk to continue to build our relationship. When the pain is under control and the surgery is over, we will continue with trauma. For me, building a relationship has been an incredibly healing part of therapy. I'm learning proper attachment.

 

[Hashi]

monster, yes I agree - building a relationship with your therapist is healing and important. It's a very valid point. Thanks.

 

[Bernie's_mom]

it took learning grounding skills and small talk to build a relationship before we could even start on the trauma

Interesting insight, monster. Makes me wonder if maybe that is exactly what my therapist is doing with me.

 

[shoulderblades]

Makes me wonder if maybe that is exactly what my therapist is doing with me

Maybe bring that up with your therapist. Ask her if that's what she's doing. Patients have a right to know the kind of treatment they're getting and why. Understanding her technique may help you know how to work with her and move more towards a working and constructive relationship.

 

[Ayasha]

I spoke to someone today about my problems and I am thinking she said something to my therapist(nothing bad, I think she said what I am afraid to) but the main point of this is that she told me this is just fear--I can't let my fear stop me from continuing to heal.

I am working on a new "homework" assignment which I think will help me get to a point where I am not quite as afraid to talk about the past. I think that is my biggest block right now, I am having difficulty accepting anything happened so that is going to be our focus first, before pulling up memories I hyper-focus on and make myself crazy by second-guessing and rationalizing.

 

[a3a2]

I've tried to quit a number of times....and somehow, I keep finding my rear back in that seat. It is the best way I have found to heal. I am so grateful to have a good one.