Other I want revenge..

[chai]

I've had a lot of bad situations in my life and what I'm going to talk about next is not the worst, but it won't let me go. I had some terrible classmates in college. They made fun of people who were slow at the board, sexualized girls. I can't describe everything because I just don't remember everything, but what I remember is that they would post naked pictures of themselves in the general chat. And that's not the worst. In fact, I don't care about that. When I decided to share a picture of my pets, they started making fun of them, posting pictures of dead animals and ATTENTION a picture of an animal that had been sexually abused. These were pictures from the Internet, not taken by them. I'm not an impressionable person, I can calmly look at dead bodies, but this never stops bothering me. Everyone else doesn't take it seriously, but I can't get it out of my head. I want to hurt these guys, because they hurt me so much. Everyone says "they're just idiots, ignore them" but why should I ignore them? They took pictures of black exchange students and laughed at them. The teachers never did anything. When I reported them for posting pictures of dead animals in response to pictures of my pets, no one did anything. I feel like an idiot because it's really not that serious... I guess.. But I don't want to let it happen. If I had more power, I would do everything to stop it. I constantly think about how I want to expose their horrible behavior, but it's like everyone knows and they don't care. I don't feel like my hatred is valid, but I can't stop it.

 

[arfie]

hatred is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die. ~anonymous

I constantly think about how I want to expose their horrible behavior, but it's like everyone knows and they don't care.

i know, i care and i am with you, but i would silently walk away from your ranting and go off to pray. would you take my silent retreat as proof that i do not care? it's okay. i would forgive you the accusation. during my initial escape from child prostitution, i was so full of such hatred that my soap box had sound and light systems. i believe i help more with the silent retreats into prayer and healing. just believing. proof irrelevant.

I don't feel like my hatred is valid, but I can't stop it.

i believe your hatred is fully valid and even commendable, as was mine. i hold the hatred is valid, but not the most effective course of action. i believe that hatred is what brought us to this hateful state of affairs. again, just believing

prayers ongoing. . .

 

[Sideways]

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[Survivor3]

Hello @chai. Your emotional response to the actions of these misguided people is valid and true. But the best revenge is good living. They succeeded in hurting you by provoking an emotional response however you will only hurt yourself more by retaliating.

Spend your energy and your focus wisely, and be kind to yourself. Love yourself.

 

[anthony]

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