I Want To Stop Taking Medication.

[ninja]

Nadia,

I'm sorry that you've been having such a rough time with the meds. :( I have a friend who is on setraline: he did not get SI from the medication but he did have weeks where he couldn't sleep (anxiety, jitters). It started after a 25mg increase. Anytime meds are being tweaked, changed, etc. they can potentially cause unwanted side effects.

I agree with others: please do not go off cold turkey and/or without your doctor's guidance. Hoping you feel better soon, Nadia! :hug:

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

Hi Nadia,

Hmmm. Rats. Ok, go to the 3rd page of Ms. Spock's thread, "Weaning off antidepressants"; look for Albatross's post, it's a link that I tried to copy for you, but maybe if you try the link in her post, you can get to the website.

Hope it works. I've found Ms. Spock's thread very informative as she is weaning off her meds and is posting daily.

Hang in there. (((Hug)))

 

[Red Feather]

Thank you Sweatpea and Ninja. I spoke to my T and doctor yesterday. My T and I discussed that if the SI doesn't go away by next week, we will have to do something about the meds. My doctor, after my T session, (they work in the same practice) said that medication is never the cause of suicide, but more there is an underlying issue which might get sparked by it, but she also said that if I was scared and not handling the meds well, I could change. So in my eyes I think she was saying that I shouldn't be concerned about the Setraline, but if I want to can go back to the Amitryptlin, I could. Which is confusing. I didn't tell her what my T and I discussed, but I suppose that my T and doctor will probably talk about it together.

I was stupid and I didn't take the 50g Amitriptilin on Sunday night as well as Monday night. Yesterday I broke down during fitness and no I was so emotional because of that. I least that is what I am guessing. I had a nightmare last night. I dreamt I had two baby's that I was trying to nurse, and one of them died. I have had similar dreams before. :cry: Taking the amitryptilin doesn't let me dream, and I just think that can't be good for an artist either.

I am not stopping with my medication and I am a bit sorry for worrying everyone. I really want to stop. I feel so trapped that I can't. I want to be able to work on my music. In order to do art, I think it is just essential to be able to feel one's true feelings. Must be able to connect with one's self. This is what makes me feel so trapped. Because I think the only thing that can really help me is to work creatively. It has always been like this.

 

[SweetPeaandSunBird]

I am not stopping with my medication and I am a bit sorry for worrying everyone.

No need to apologize here. I do understand your frustration and feeling trapped by the meds. How they mute our creativity. That I can certainly understand: I used to write, compose, draw. I'm debating trying to get off my antidepressant, but I'm not sure yet. I know my creativity and productivity and ambition have nose-dived into almost nothingness.

For almost 2 weeks now, I've been taking certain vitamins that are supposed to be very good for folks with ptsd-anxiety-depression. I think they are starting to work. They are a B-complex (I make certain B1 is in the mix because it converts glucose into energy); D3 (a deficiency in it can cause depression); Fish Oil (to help with clearer thinking); and a basic multivitamin.

Anyway, I pass that on to you just in case it might help.

Please, don't feel stupid. I mean: did you get a degree in biochemistry? I know I didn't. It's all so very complex.

Do take care. If you're ever not satisfied with what your doctor is telling you, keep bringing up your concerns. (((Hugs)))

 

[Jen93]

Hey Naddie, here's a bit of a story. So, I've been on medication right? I tried seroquel, I tried Ativan-Lorazepam, I tried Cipralex. Every time I ended up writing in the suicidal ideation and depression section of the forum after taking it, and I begged my doctor to stop prescribing me this stuff. So, within a three week-period, I was at my worst with the medications.

And then, I got a new doctor because I grew out of my old one. She prescribed me Prozac. She put me on one. I resisted. It wasn't helping me AT ALL. She upped me to two, I had my next bad spell and ended up in her office. She kept me on two, and after more time, the thoughts were gone. It actually took longer for my body to get used to the meds- it rejected it, but now I'm actually happy. Like really feeling like me again.

I'm the last person to ever say this, and I can't believe this is coming from my laptop, but trust your doctor. If you have concerns, do go to them, and they will work with you to decide what the best thing to do is.