I Was Doing So Good

[superman1496]

I don't know if anyone else on here has ever gone through this, but I have started freaking out. I have posted enough information on here I am worried about my abusers reading this. I'm terrified now, and it's only because of my lady that I haven't tried deleting everything and getting away from this. I'm freaking out.

 

[evergreen]

Look for a domestic violence shelter. They often have free counseling and advocacy. I think you should look for real life help. There is only so much we can do to help you via an online forum. I hate to think of you living in constant fear--and I know it is not good for your body. Find a way to make it so that you are safe, and you know you are safe. You can always call 911 if they show up.

 

[intothelight]

Superman,

I think it is pretty normal to feel fear when a person starts posting on a site like this, especially with PTSD. But you need to think about the fear and whether or not it is based on the past, or is actually grounded in the present.

Is your user name unique and not used on other sites your abusers are familiar with?
Do your abusers know you have PTSD and would they expect you to join a forum like this one?

When I first joined this forum I was actively being stalked and threatened by my ex. Those were the two questions I kept asking myself to put the fear in its proper perspective.

Hope this helps.
Debbie

 

[superman1496]

No, they don't know about my PTSD (I think) and they wouldn't know my username if they did. I'm over thinking things like usual.

 

[kimba]

I too have had the thought that my abuser could figure out who I am etc. This is why I chose not to use my day to day name and watch what details I write publically. Knowing there is no way anyone could track me down because I have been so careful is a comfort and makes me feel safe enough to share. Sharing gives me power he can't take away.