I Was Thinking Of Longterm Goals

[winterose]

What I really want in long term. Thought maybe others might like to share what they "dream" of doing.

I want to go to school and study music therapy and do ground breaking work with it and PTSD.
I want to ride with BACA
I want to be more proactive in helping PROTECT.
I want to get a house with some land so I can save a few of the wild mustangs and let them run free.
I want to sit and watch the sun come up in the morning and look out across my land and see nature come alive for the day.
I want to sit and watch nature go to sleep and watch the night critters wake as a final song of days end as the sun sets.
I want to do all this in New Mexico.
I want to be at that place where my symptoms are better managed and I have enough "landing strip", when things go bumpy to keep symptoms in check as much as possible when my PTSD does flare up.

 

[safenow]

Long term:

I want to be able to walk around the block without pain.
I want to go to the mountains, and be able to talk to the animals again.
I want to feel the wind and listen as it blows through the trees.
I want to look up into the sky and watch the stars and planets as they go across the sky.
I want to be able to go visit my friends and be able to just go for a walk with them.
I want to pick wild berries again and make a pie.
I want to never have to live in fear again

 

[discarded]

Long term:

I want to find happiness again
I want financial security for myself and my daughter
I want to find acceptance for the crap hand I have been dealt in life
I want to own my own home, not jointly with someone else
I want to put all my regrets behind me and learn from the mistakes I have made

 

[winterose]

safenow, What beautiful goals.
discarded, Here's to you for what you need. Least we got our brothers eh? :)

 

[Britt.f7]

I dream of myself being slim(not overly thin) and healthy.
I dream of going places without fear.
I dream of building my blog with my writings and it actually being liked.
I dream of writing a book.
I dream of my children's successes in life.
I dream of having a horse.
I dream of living in the middle of nowhere with quick access to my lattes. ;) Almost have that now, except my house is too close to a busy road and not enough land for the city to let me have a horse.

 

[winterose]

Here's to your dreams , Brit. :) Have you ever thought of writing a children's book? Might be something to get you in the habit of writing other stuff. :)

 

[Britt.f7]

Once or twice when my kids were little. The youngest keeps telling me I should write a book. He gives wonderful encouragement(he's 14). :)

 

[winterose]

Ahah, the plot thickens, ;)

 

[safenow]

It's a wonderful feeling to see your book in print and hold it in your hands. A few years back we wrote a book for children. That one I'm proud of. I had to take it and the other one off the market because of a stalker, but maybe someday I can redo the cover and put it back out there.

I would like to encourage you to do it, Britt. Your son is very wise. You could bless a lot of young people by doing that.

 

[intothelight]

I am a goal oriented person and over the past few years I have set various recovery goals with varying degrees of success. Each time and as I get better I raise the bar a little bit, but in the past four years I have been afraid to set a really big longer term goal and work towards it.

One of my dreams was to compete in an iron woman triathlon and prior to the PTSD breakdown and cancer, I was well on my way. I remember that person being very healthy, happy, energetic and on top of the world. That person was me...or should I say that person is "me".

So, I have set the goal to realize my own dream. Yes, it will be hard at 53 and taking chemo daily, but it isn't impossible. I have 11 months to realize it and the only thing that really stands in my way is me and my own thoughts. Instead of finding reasons why I can't, I am working on finding how I can.

One thing I have learned over the past four years, achieving a goal isn't the most important thing, it is the journey and what is learned and accomplished along the way. Bring on Oct 2014!

 

[Britt.f7]

I want to get thinner and healthier. I saw my aunts after my mother died, and I just see my going the way they are, sickly. Now one of them just had a heart attack and she is only in her early 30's. My goal is to not be them.

 

[winterose]

I'm back in New Mexico. Been able to be more proactive to Protect. Especially the H.E.R.O's program which hires wounded vets to help hunt down child predators. I watch the sun go up and go down. We are working on getting a house with land now. I am going to go to school to do animal therapy to train animals for therapy but also open up a domestic violence shelter for pet's. We weighed my health vs what is reality for me to work. I need to be on my own schedule because of my chrone's and such. I'm more happier with myself. I've made some painful decisions on letting go of well meaning but toxic people out of my life. I know what works for me now. If I don't get the support I need now, I let go and move on. I've grown much stronger in knowing my feelings do not last. To be patient through harder times when sad and give myself a break. It lifts alot of unneeded burdens for me so I can continue to discover new things that do make me happy. I learned being responsible in my life, like finances, taking care of myself, working hard, etc is all that I am required to do. People don't have a say on my time or happiness anymore because I am different or weird. This has put me back in control of my own life. Which is the goal I think all along. I have a better emotional maturity then I have before.