I Wonder???

[tigrou465]

Yes I wonder... I have been out of the hospital since January 13 after a month passed there. Since I have been out, life has been chalanging me. It seems there is a black cloud over me. As hard as I try to keep up my mood, life is chalanging me! Everything around me is breaking: diswasher, washer, dryer, the phone, my car and even the computer is showing sing of fatigue!!! My dog is not in shape - he has trouble with his digestion. I have spent more than 1200.00$ to get everything repaired. I'm alone to pay everything and I received my monthly insurance. I know that oversleeping is not helping but yet I don't have much energy. I know I have to get myselp reorganized since my home coming, I know I have to be kind on myself, do things I like, enjoy to have motivation to do the rest (like house cleaning witch is very necessary....) I have registered myself to a sign language course - that I enjoy, also a meditation therapy recommended by my psychiatrist. But I barely do things around me... do the washing - I do it when I don't have the choice anymore and I have a tone of it! I have to do the grocery because I'm out of everything! I was telling myself earlier that I should have a fix time of sleep - go to bed the same time every night and get up also at the same time, maybe that would help. I even note things in my agenda to do thing everyday. I know what I need to do but I don't do it!!!! It piles up and then It affect my mood. I have my next ECT treatment on Wednesday maybe it's because I'm due. BUT I WONDER... What could I do to just get a bit motivated, just a little so I could do little things, small step to get big step accomplish at the end!

 

[LittleHugger]

What could I do to just get a bit motivated, just a little so I could do little things, small step to get big step accomplish at the end!

These are a few of my tools to try to get motivated, dumb as they may be.

-LET'S MAKE A DEAL: Think of ANYTHING reasonable that I'd like to do (lay down, have a peice of cake...whatever it is), and make a deal with myself. Like: "K, if you get up and go clean the bathroom you can lay down for and hour and have that piece of cake!" It's like bait!

-SHAT IN THE HAT: I know this sounds stupid. Write down 10 'shat' things you think you should be doing, put them in a hat. Draw out one piece of 'shat'. While you are doing the task, bitch and complain the whole time. Like: You stupid toilet!! If you didn't flush my crap outta this house, I'd get rid of you! You freakin stink!" It works best if you say it out loud too, trust me. It works for me, because it gets my angries out, and half the time makes me crack up into hysterics.

-DANCE AND SING LIKE YOU ARE A COMPLETE FOOL: Yes, I am afraid I do this. I will put music on the stereo, or use my iphones. I will pick some tunes that make a tiny piece of me wanna boogie down. Put these tunes on repeat, and play it loud. Then get at it. Sing baby! Belt it out! (best done in the house, although I have been caught by neighbours). Pretend your the next American Idol...I mean, belt it out! If you can dance too, all the better! Vacuuming gives you a dance partner, and dusting provides various microphones!

I may look, sound, and act crazy...but it makes me overcome inertia and gets things done. Whatever works right?

Hopefully, other people have some more of their motivational tools to share. I'm always open to new ideas.:)

 

[tigrou465]

Thanks to you.. you made me smile and laugh especially with "you stupid toilet..." It made me stop crying! I think being alone at home gets to me!!! Even if I have a dog and a cat being the only human in the housse is hard for me... it realy "eats out" my motivation... At least I found that out today. I have started to do the cleaning of my scrapbooking paper... tomorrow I will contact the occupational health therapy at my hospital and see if I can donate the "pile" of paper I know I won't use... why keep it if I know I won't use it... maybe I will feel motivated to do the rest of the cleaning of that... small steps.

 

[LittleHugger]

Wonderful that you laughed....although that wasn't my intention. Laughter has been the one thing that has been my saviour. Depression can not live when you laugh all day.

I am happy that you took on a chore. Going through that paper and donating the remainder are TWO things that you can really feel good about!:)

I also have a hard time being alone. I think too much, and end up doing too little. I plan for when I am alone in the house, because I will start sinking, so I need a plan to combat that. You might want to try having a plan for those alone times...it's helped me get through them with better results.