Poll If You Repressed/suppressed Your Trauma, What Triggered Your Memories To Return?

[cat]

I think mine was triggered by pure exhaustion. In the previous year I'd got divorced, my mother died, son got married, brother diagnosed with leukemia, I was diagnosed with heart problem & I moved house to live on my own - not much really!

 

[Oasis616]

Interestingly enough, mine was triggered by the most unlikely of situations: a one-night-stand. It wasn't the act itself that triggered it was the calloused, indifferent, "whatever, I got what I wanted" behavior post-action of the other indivdual which set things off (bear in mind pre and post this incident, I had never had a "willing" one-night-stand).

 

[Bimble]

Mine were triggered again recently by the exposure to the site where I had my accident last year. I never really realised I was suppressing my thoughts and feelings at the time, until they all spilled out at the same time, causing me to blackout and have the most horrendous flashbacks.

I am working with a support worker to try and overcome my thoughts and feelings associated with the buildings and site where it happened, by regular visits, but in a way they are actually causing me more anxiety and stress than if I just stopped trying and accepted that I actually feel better not being there and experiencing it all over again.

 

[Zef]

Mine started when we found child porn on a client's computer. I reported it to the police and also had to force the company who owned the computer to also report. That afternoon, I had my first fragments of my CSA.

 

[jimmy-joe]

I watch them like video clips, when I can find them. It's become comforting for some reason, I can think better, I think it's because my adrenaline kicks in and I go back to normal.

 

[Lumpy Space Princess]

I didn't own up the fact that I had been traumatized until my best friend started having intense flashbacks this past January. Until then, I had gotten really good at distracting myself and was in deep denial about my abuse.

 

[Loveneverfails]

My memories were triggered by reading books about recovering from abuse and therapy. The more examples I read, the more my own feelings resurfaced and the memories came along after. It's always been that way it seems. First I feel, then I remember, never at the same time. I think I had to also reach a level of independence in my own mind where uncovering these memories was possible. The more distance I had between me and the abusers, the more they resurfaced.

 

[Venusian]

Last year I moved and was on my own for the first time in my life and didn't have anyone else to look after, I was 46. I then began to have have allergy symptoms that turned into being diagnosed with asthma. It was during the months before being diagnosed that the flashbacks started and the memories began to flood back. It was the sensation of my breath being cut off that did it and not having to put my own needs on the back burner.

 

[Ruckster]

My memories tumbled out of storage when my boss said things to me exactly like my attacker said to me... same tone, same attitude, and nearly the exact same wording.

 

[Wanda]

Mine was triggered when my boss harrassed and belittled me saying "I'm ineffective" one of my first molesters said that....had several family members including my dad molest me.

 

[Privateer]

Being involved in a search and rescue mission after a 'pane crash. Don't know why, but something snapped and all kinds of stuff came back.

 

[Charmedone]

I was working too hard with several families. Leading up to remembering, one person I work with told me about an incident that happened to them and through post natal depression a mum i was working with was neglecting her baby (which is why they called me to go in and help). Then a client was driving with me in the car and we were in a nasty crash...that was it everything came back :(