Widow_of_one
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Yes I’ve been there. The first thing I did was change the things I could. Hated my job so I got another. Felt uncomfortable about my neighbor so I avoided her. Do what you can do! Focus on what is realistic given your assets. I am a live-in caregiver and I was stuck without a car with a demented woman for weeks at a time so I started baking vegan cheeses! I started saving every dime I could!lately been dissociated 24/7, almost always numb. can't enjoy anything, can't feel anything positive, can't do anything, i'm just so empty & dead inside and i want it to stop. i'm trying to break out of it, but it never really works. i've tried grounding myself in a healthy way (like trying to focus on sounds, objects, textures, exc...), also tried sh, works a little better but doesn't do much either. I've tried distracting myself with something unrelated, doesn't work. it seems like i'm completely stuck in this state, and the only times i can break out of it sort of are when i'm triggered (which happens a lot too, but i'm still dissociated usually) or have something really upset me that's unrelated. i just can occasionally feel happy, like very very occasionally. been going on for over a month so far, i'm always like this.
i'm sure like a lot of people here do or had to deal with this too, so i guess do y'all have any tips that work for you to break out of dissociation & numbness?
do what you can. Can’t excerise at a gym? Fine buy those elastic bands and use those!
what I’ve come to realize is that I can’t have crazy people in my life; tosses them out one by one it keeps me numb when someone who I don’t trust is in my environment.
it seems like by “moving out” you’ve become more aware of what’s going on inside of you; and NOT made your disassociation worse. Bravo keep gaining in any way you can. I think your discovering yourself and that’s great news keep going!
btw being triggered a lot is a good place to be in. In my opinion it means that your environment is stable and your subconscious mind is “open” so that an event can heal you by having an association or a flashback.
To break out of numbness: I want to be crystal clear: you need a safe environment, healthy positive fiends (I’ve come to realize that having “frenemies” stops progress). Just rmeber what Janet greeson said: yiur cjetral nervous system has one goal: stay alive. Not be happy! Stay alive! Until you make your environment safe nothing will change. Getting triggers a lot means you are on a good path. And baby steps don’t toss everyone out of your life at once!
When I have a flashback I wrote it down. When I feel good about it sometimes I do it immediately other times I wait a couple of days: I go back and reread my entry this time adding text that pops into my head sort of like building joint what was written.
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