I'm Losing It Again

[JoeNavy]

I told my boss a long time ago---2003, that I think I have PTSD and it's causing bad depression. I thought the guy was a friend. Next thinkg I know I'm treated badly by everybody,and eventually have to quit. Then, my PTSD pretty mcuh went away (the bad, uncontrollable parts) for several years. Here I am again, and I think I'll probably lose my job again. I can't do that again. I'm getting old and just can't start over. I'm seeing the docs at the VA and the Vet Center now, but things just keep getting worse. DOES THIS EVER END? Let me know.....I am suicidal every day, but I have kids so I just can't do that to them....

 

[TLight]

Yes, you can't do that to your kids. Thanks.

Try to relax and get all the assistance you can. Trust that things will stabilize yet again.
Look into disability. This is a tough disorder and it's not right to not admit that.

I guess that's the best I can say. Stay calm, meds etc can help us through these times.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

DOES THIS EVER END?

HI JoeNavy,

Wish I had all the answers for you. Some days are better than others. Please read some information here on the forum about PTSD. Information is provided about recovery. I think it depends on the severity of your particular case of PTSD and other variables. In many cases there is no recovery. From my experience of a long time PTSD sufferer, all I know is depending on how well you can manage your life and living environment your PTSD can be anywhere on a scale of manageable to out of control. The reason is- life changes daily, circumstances change, people change etc. Just when you think you have every thing in your life micro managed to the point that you feel good and get some relief... boom.. something's going to change and :poop: on your perfect little routine. To say the least it's a constant battle. But like I said some days are better than others.

It sounds like you need a diagnosis from your dr's confirming PTSD. Then from there you can get on meds if needed, and continue therapy. But try to do everything you can to get correctly diagnosed. And then start taking care of yourself ok. Hang in there friend. I just got over a real bad hump where I didn't think I would make it, but I did! And you will too. :)

Take care of yourself ok

 

[JoeNavy]

Thanks TLight and Flying Solo. I apprecie your thoughts and suggestions. You are right....some days things seem to go ok, annd others not. Ususally if I keep VERY busy I'm ok....but there are always down times.