Sufferer Im New Here

[Camochick]

Hi I just wanted to say hello and give my ailments:(
I have severe Ptsd anxiety panic disorder and anger so bad I can't be around people much. Medically I have chronic pain, complex migraines, I've had trans ischemic attacks, partial stroke, vertigo, hysterectomy all before my 40s. Hope to help and be helped here:)

 

[xraydave]

Hello there camochick, I also have strange transient silent migraine activity but in my case, it is considered 'psychotic' (as distinguished from 'schizophrenic'), but mainly due to it leading to randomized auras and hallucinatory sensations (like tastes or smells) and visions (could be the auras, and sometimes flashes of people or animals walking around etc). Adding to that, i have these blackout seizures, where everything goes black and i may even have to wait 3-4 minutes to start moving again.

Real physiological like things, i can relate and im guessing there are quite a bit of people who can relate to your case here as well. i've had only a few panic attacks in my life, and they were due to obvious stressors. but having a full blown panic disorder would be infuriating. :/

what are you doing to deal with these issues? I feel obliged to ask a bit more.

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the forum! :)

 

[Cammochick]

@intothelight
Thank you!!!

 

[Cammochick]

Hello there camochick, I also have strange transient silent migraine activity but in my case, it is co...

Well first I had to be diagnosed properly, then was put on benzos way too much with no therapy. My husband and I moved to another city same state and I went to a new place after spending a week in the er. Now I have cpt therapy and a psychologist who has helped so much with getting me off those Xanax which I'd been on for over ten years. I see my therapist now once every two weeks and my shrink I see once a month for med adjustment. I went from taking 4mg of Xanax a day to zero. Now I'm on Paxil and I take clonazepam 0.25mg twice a day. It was hard and now I feel EVERYTHING! I am not used to all these feelings and my husband is so tired of it taking so long to get better. Some people don't really get it when they say they do. I'm very volatile still and husband says I need to control my anger and that's life people will piss me off and no no one will hurt me again so get back out in the world. If only it was that easy. Therapy is all that's keeping me together atm. I just got out of the hospital again and now I have copd awesome!

 

[xraydave]

Well first I had to be diagnosed properly, then was put on benzos way too much with no therapy. My h...

im not on medications at the moment, but i used to be. some of the worst moments have come from medications. and anxiety, and antipsychotic medications. in the end , it was just not worth it for me, and psychotherapy was so much more useful for me. but it changes for everyone i guess. :-)

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug:

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

 

[Cammochick]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of...

Thank u all so much! Ur all very kind and I look forward to trying to open up more. I have wicked trust issues and it would be nice not to trust and then see my issues spread all over social media.
I accept hugs and I sometimes use laughter and sarcasm to deal or avoid. Again thank u all so much my heart breaks for all of us suffering and for the caretakers I feel for them also it's a lot to deal with.

 

[Cammochick]

Is there an app version of this site? Sorry just wondering.

 

[Cammochick]

im not on medications at the moment, but i used to be. some of the worst moments have come from medica...

Eventually the only med will be Paxil.
My other meds are medical ones. Percocet diazepam propanolol for blood pressure inhaler for copd estrogen patches because of my strokes I can't have a lot of hormones. This was forced to save my life pretty much but it still sucks. I've got too much medically and mentally rite now and all my therapist keeps saying is hang out w people and make friends. I don't want to deal w any people in my home or face. I don't drive much because I see visions of hitting a tree every time I drive. I've also gone the wrong way on a two lane highway, hit some ladies car w my bumper and everyone is pushing me to drive again. And go work again. I can't get through a day w out wanting to kill something let alone deal w a professional environment.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

@Cammochick
The website has a sorta mobile mode which can be accessed through a phone browser, just go normaly :)

And don't worry, the site isn't really likely to mouth around your stuff :)