I'm Struggling

[AlohaDreaming]

I've been in a relationship for nearly a year now with a man I've been good friends with for years. He's aware of my PTSD, but I feel like he's detaching from me. He used to call on breaks (going back years and years) and that's randomly stopped. He just seems to not want to be connected to me. He just comes home and does his own thing. I've tried to talk to him about it a few times, but it doesn't seem to make any difference.

I don't know if this is me, or him. I think it's me, but I'm frustrated and tired. I was doing so well and now I've had two huge episodes in the past two days. I'm starting to think about getting my own place, but I have no idea how I would survive, I barely survived last two years living on my own, when I got a roommate they used me for all the money I was making.

I was evicted from my apartment, and didn't realize what was going on. I went before the judge, he told me what was going on, and I came home thinking I won the case. I hadn't. I was in an anxiety fog, and when I tried to talk to the complex about it, she women screamed at me, and hung up on me. I lived in fear all those months that they were going to throw me out.

So I'm scared, and most of the time I just want to lay in bed. My house is falling apart, and I don't feel motivated to do anything.

 

[Gadgie]

Ah! Your lot alone there, a lot other folk in here feel exactly the same as you do.

Sometimes I think that the only thing that has kept me going, is coming in here, as everyone in here understands what I write, and that makes me feel a lot better, good luck and remember you are not alone.

 

[AlohaDreaming]

Thank you for reaching out, @Gadgie. I'm glad others understand, and I'm a bit better the past few days. Still not 100% but getting there.

 

[Gadgie]

Your welcome, just remember there are plenty of folk in here who are going through the same thing, and they are all here to help you.

The main thing being, is that we can all understand what you are going through, as we have all been there ourselves, and some of us still are!

Try and find "one positive thing" out of each day, "that can help In every way," good luck.