Relationship I'm struggling to cope with my partners CPTSD

[Charlie]

My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 3 years and he is an Army Veteran. He was very upfront with his mental health battles and CPTSD diagnosis when we met and though we've had our struggles we have battled through.
Over the weekend he put himself in a really dangerous situation where I had to call the police to find him, he's said he was just in a 'f*ck it' mood, didn't care about anything and think just wanted to drown out everything.
He's broken up about it, about how he's made me feel and we've got him into the GP quickly and got some onwards referalls happening which is good.
I'm really struggling to work through my emotions, I feel so angry/sad/upset/guilty and it's just coming out in me being snappy/irritable and then feeling guilty and then the cycle begins again! Feel like I'm drowning.
I want to support him and be there for him, this is the first time though I feel like an element of trust is gone and I don't know how to get that back.

 

[Sweetpea76]

I'm really struggling to work through my emotions, I feel so angry/sad/upset/guilty and it's just coming out in me being snappy/irritable and then feeling guilty and then the cycle begins again!

You were probably panicked and highly stressed for a period of time. It’ll take a little time to come down from that. Plus now your have to come down and process everything while tap dancing on eggshells as to not stress HIM out any more.

Your emotions are valid as well. Your stress is real, even if you’re the “healthy” one. Give yourself some grace.

 

[Mulledy1130]

I'm really struggling as well. My partner was assaulted by a family member, which resulted in us having to move, and he was then basically shunned by his entire family, who we have since cut ties with. But after we moved we stayed for a month with my mother, who at the time had a drinking problem (we slowly realized this over the time we were there, and she has seen gotten help and her drinking is under control). All of this led to him having cptsd, and it's great that we now have a diagnosis, but my mother is a massive trigger for him, and when he's triggered by her he turns on me as well. Basically it's like a whole relationship never happened, and we're strangers.

Now that I better understand the cptsd, I'm planning on keeping my mother away from him indefinitely, so he has time to heal, but she got married this past weekend. I felt like there was no winning either way, so we attended the wedding, with him having as minimal contact as possible, but of course he's having a big episode. I know he's suffering, but to just be receiving hatred nonstop from my partner is killing me.