I'm Stuck In Therapy Now - Can't Go, Can't Not Go.

[Ette]

Was trying EMDR last year. I went four times, the fourth was dang difficult (to say the least.) I freaked it - and then I thought I'm so much better anyway, phooie.

Obviously not! So I decide to try again. The session was ok but at the end my T says "You gonna vanish 6 months again?" I said "No, not this time." He said "good, because this is the hard homework again."

<sigh> I did it again and now after what he said I'm too embarrassed to go back! Been 2 months, I did the homework - lord yes it was horrible - but now don't wanna go talk about it and can't seem to force myself.

Any ideas?

 

[Tinyflame]

Well, it's your money & time you're paying them, so if you don't want to go it's wasting both. And your energy.

 

[Snowflake]

Gosh I understand! After every session when I did EMDR I wanted to quit. I think I actually called my therapist left messages saying I quit. But it's not gonna get any better if you do. I actually just left therapy now and I'm ready to quit because I didn't do EMDR. It works but boy is it hard. Others here will give great responses -I am a newbie and struggle with saying the right thing. But I do understand ....

 

[watundah]

Don't go because you want to. Go because you need to. If it was fun, everyone would do it. Good luck.

 

[Friday]

From 6mo to 2mo. I see improvement.

 

[Born to Run]

I think it may not be the right approach for you, or be too overwhelming to you. You should listen to yourself. I always want to go to therapy and not because it is fun, but because I feel there is a positive process going on that in the end will deliver results. I had the most horrible year in therapy, but always go 2-3 times a week. If I did not have the trust in the process this would have been impossible. Maybe you can not find the overall benefit, or at least it seems you can not find something rewarding in it, otherwise you would go back.

 

[Suzetig]

It may be that EMDR isn't right for you right now, or at all - you may need to build a stronger more secure relationship or try someone else or a different approach.

I've not done EMDR because I know it would be too much for me, instead I have a very secure relationship where my T and I slowly unpick what's happened with me. Sometimes it feels like I'm trying to empty the ocean with a thimble, but she's careful not to retraumatised me and I can clearly see progress. It's not meant to be fun, but I don't think it should be torturous either.