Inner World

[OceanSpray]

I’ve been watching some tv stuff about psychology and find it interesting how different peoples’ baseline brain world/thoughts go. Apparently some don’t have images/videos and some don’t have any inner thoughts I guess? Mine is just a constant narration of things I have to do next or commentary on how I feel about whatever I’m doing. I have a whole world going full of pictures and movies and noise. To the point I have to play background noise to drown out the constant noise.

So outside of your trauma thoughts, what does your normal day brain noise sound like?

 

[Friday]

So outside of your trauma thoughts, what does your normal day brain noise sound like?

Zero sound. I think in pictures. I have to translate my thoughts INTO words/sound.

Something in between 5-12 “reels” or “streams” of thought happening simultaneously. On completely disparate topics, for the most part. Occasionally it’s a single stream. But when that happens the building can be on fire, or I haven’t pee’d in a day and a half, and I wouldn’t know it… not until something knocks me out of hyper focus and I can become aware of my surroundings, or physiological needs. Both of which (surroundings & self) are on two different reels.

 

[Sideways]

Conversations, often multiple at the same time. Thank you, DID, for all the noise!

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

Aside from trauma stuff, a lot of inner-commentary. Thinking over/narrating what I’m doing, criticism, random noise about music or something else. Some nonsense. Existential noise. Direction. Redirection.

 

[ellzeena]

I’ve been watching some tv stuff about psychology and find it interesting how different peoples’ baseline brain world/thoughts go. Apparently some don’t have images/videos and some don’t have any inner thoughts I guess? Mine is just a constant narration of things I have to do next or commentary on how I feel about whatever I’m doing. I have a whole world going full of pictures and movies and noise. To the point I have to play background noise to drown out the constant noise.

So outside of your trauma thoughts, what does your normal day brain noise sound like?

It's a constant video, in full color, sound and all. I didn't realize everyone didn't exist this way until about ten years ago. I lived an entire lifetime with several worlds occuring at once in my mind, thinking everyone had it. Memories are especially bothersome since I am grief stricken for almost 14 years after losing my 23 year old daughter. I realized I have a memory for every single thing that ever happened to me probably pre-birth as well, and it's all stored in there and I never know when one is going to present itself. Its like a video, it occurs suddenly and there's not much I can do about it, but that's PTSD. I also have good memories but they're not as loud and persistent and even they make me sad now.

When I think, I "hear" it. Oddly, I once went up the mountain to the monk's monastery and took a one afternoon class in meditation. I can actually do it! The 15 minute session passed like 5 seconds, total silence in my mind, just as very deep prayer feels. Seems contradictory, doesn't it? I can "see" things in my mind like places I've been, streets I've walked, classrooms, subways, the most innocuous everyday things, just by thinking of them. I actually feel sorry for people whose minds don't work this way, life must be awfully dull and getting inspiration impossible. But it would enhance mental illness, that I know because my daughter's mind worked like mine only she was ill and it produced hallucinations and night terrors for her as a young adult. So there's a downside to this.

 

[Alien0n3arth]

I’ve been watching some tv stuff about psychology and find it interesting how different peoples’ baseline brain world/thoughts go. Apparently some don’t have images/videos and some don’t have any inner thoughts I guess? Mine is just a constant narration of things I have to do next or commentary on how I feel about whatever I’m doing. I have a whole world going full of pictures and movies and noise. To the point I have to play background noise to drown out the constant noise.

So outside of your trauma thoughts, what does your normal day brain noise sound like?

Interesting! My thoughts always gravitate to my interests. For example I think about aliens and being abducted to their realm (it’s positive one) or that I meet David Grusch in person and have a possibility to talk to him about aliens and ask questions about projects like blue book and stories shared by pilots he talked to. Or I have ideas for new story of course alien related. I often also kind of experience multiple times a video about them that I watched and I’m really deep in it. I may not notice how I cleaned home or came back from work while being sucked deep by my thoughts. Quite often I have unpleasant sensation that the movie I have in my head is so loud that everyone can see and hear what’s going on in my head. I have never problems to distinguish what is my thoughts and what is reality. Other things I have in my thoughts- imagined friends, also some deep and detailed analyses of my problems, behaviors, situations I had etc. this helps me be more self aware I guess. I have no problems criticizing myself or receiving it from others.

 

[Roland]

I "hear" an inner narrator, that talks all the time pretty much and I visualize everything like a movie. I'd say it's like when you're watching a movie and there's a voice over. But sometimes there's no visual just voice and sometimes only visual and no voice.

I also can think in 3D, like I can flip things around in my mind probably too much (I'm dyslexic). A lot of designers, engineers, mechanics, and artists have brains like that because it aids in their work.

 

[Teasel]

The funniest thing I learned through meditating is that my inner dialogue reminds me of hello magazine

 

[Alien0n3arth]

I "hear" an inner narrator, that talks all the time pretty much and I visualize everything like a movie. I'd say it's like when you're watching a movie and there's a voice over. But sometimes there's no visual just voice and sometimes only visual and no voice.

I also can think in 3D, like I can flip things around in my mind probably too much (I'm dyslexic). A lot of designers, engineers, mechanics, and artists have brains like that because it aids in their work.

I experience it similarly and I also visualize everything in 3D, I was exceptionally good at geometry and creating arts and designs is always my favorite thing.

 

[thursday]

Interesting! My thoughts always gravitate to my interests. For example I think about aliens and being abducted to their realm (it’s positive one) or that I meet David Grusch in person and have a possibility to talk to him about aliens and ask questions about projects like blue book and stories shared by pilots he talked to. Or I have ideas for new story of course alien related. I often also kind of experience multiple times a video about them that I watched and I’m really deep in it. I may not notice how I cleaned home or came back from work while being sucked deep by my thoughts. Quite often I have unpleasant sensation that the movie I have in my head is so loud that everyone can see and hear what’s going on in my head. I have never problems to distinguish what is my thoughts and what is reality. Other things I have in my thoughts- imagined friends, also some deep and detailed analyses of my problems, behaviors, situations I had etc. this helps me be more self aware I guess. I have no problems criticizing myself or receiving it from others.

I relate to the above, except for the aliens. Was able to do this in the recent past. Now I'm in the real world and I don't like it at all. Now it's some kind of video that rewinds back and forth with sound. With other videos through it some times and snap shots. Also dark bits where the videos are taped together?