Integrated Some Hefty Personalites From My Trauma

[Abrasky]

I have integrated the main personalities in my trauma in the last 3 years.

Anti- gentle kindergarten teacher personality

Anti-stable working gentleman pop/fun going to Sea World personality

Anti- Mrs W at the farm who raised me to be a lady personality.

Anti-RW crush at school, appreciate sunshine and little things personality

Anti- mothering and caring and bold working Mrs O personaltiy.

Anti-horse that was in my stablehand job dissacotiaton/ almost a personality.

Anti fire-brigade going fast and integrating into work personality.

Anti Man from Snowy River spirit obsession as a teenager personality.

And with that 1000's of emotions, memories and individual flashbacks held by each personality.

It has been a tough few years.:rolleyes: And in the second half of that I managed to obtain my first proper long term job since my trauma and earn a small income to support my family.

 

[quaintpapercut]

Wonderful progress! It sounds like you've come a long way!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Congratulations Maze. You have worked so hard on your recovery. I applaud you. Hugs.

 

[Abrasky]

thank you :)

 

[The Albatross]

Go Maze...and congratulations!! I have been a long time follower of your diary and I have to say that one of the things that I most admire is the way you kept your eyes on the prize and slogged on through it all... managing the stress and memory flooding and disassociations as best as you could. Like a swimmer diving into the deep end of the pool, you just kept focusing on getting to the shallow end. Great progress and I'm really happy for you.

 

[Fia]

Well done! Im reading a book about multiple personalities at the moment and realise how close Ive been and how lucky I am. I only had one and i have integrated with her. Little Fia, myself as a 3 year old. She almost took over for a short time and that was bad enough. Imagine a 3 year old ruling your emoions!? but I kept her happy with fairytales and decorating her room in my head and then one day she was gone.
You have done incredible work and only in 3 years!

 

[Abrasky]

Thanks Albatross. What a great description, It does feel like jumping in the deep end:laugh:.

Thanks Fia :)

 

[BloomInWinter]

Great work, Maze!!! Wow!

((((((Maze)))))

 

[Sailorgal]

Wow Maze,

You definitely deserve to treat yourself for such sn amazing accomplishment!

Your perseverance and desire to live is an incredible testimony!!!! :)

Thanks for sharing with us!!!

 

[Shellbell]

Definitely a huge accomplishment and very worth all the slog and very hard work!

And I agree, an incredible testimony! :)

 

[safenow]

You don't' know me, but as a fellow MPD person, I applaud you.

 

[Abrasky]

Thanks safenow.

I don't have MPD. I have PTSD with dissacotiation into personalty like states. My dissacotiation can be like personalities, but I am aware when I am dissacotiating.

There I suppose is a lot of similarities though, and it is not far of a keystroke.