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I hate to say it, It took me longer to figure out a title then to introduce my self. I am an Iraq vet with fourteen years of service and forty five months deployed to Iraq as a Cavalry Scout. I denied having PTSD after my first deployment, I was part of the initial invasion and stop loss. It took sixteen months of my life away the first time. I returned to Europe where I was stationed, began drinking and fighting on a regular basis. I was going through the motions of doing company grades and extra duty. To me this seemed normal its what twenty year olds in a foreign country do I was told. Nothing could fead my adrenaline monkey riding on my back and no one could calm the anger that kept clawing out from deep inside.
With in a year after my first deployment I PCS'd to the states and soon enough my life was filled with going to the field every few weeks, drinking and deploying back to Iraq. By 2010 I had gotten married and divorced, deployed again and had a bunch of carpet crawlers running around. For most this would seem like a normal thing but I found my self always angry, having a hard time focusing and not being able to remember the simplest of tasks. I had stubbled with getting an associates degree often having to reread books multiple times for each class.
Never realizing I my self had a problem, sure I had been told once or twice along the way that TBI (traumatic Brain Injury) from IED's (Improvised Explosive Devices) were the causes of my memory problems. So I dealt with it alway denouncing that I was one of them with PTSD. till my son had to see a Dr. about ADHD and ODD. Three minutes into the Dr. visit with the Psycho Therapist he turned to me and asked how long I had been serving for.
It lead me to a heated debate about him thinking I may have PTSD. I went home and my wife confronted me and told me I needed to go back and talk with the DR. about PTSD because she was sure I had it. After a few weeks of me and my wife going at it I returned to the see the DR and we talked and he filled me in all about it and the symptoms. I eventually gave in and contented to see him on a regular basis. He had me start taking a mood stabilizer to help me out.
That has been over a year ago. Since then I have quit drinking and finished my bachelors degree. I am more tolerable to be around, I don't create chaos for those around me any more; it seems that I am able to over come each day, with out wanting to find a way out from it.
I hate to say it, It took me longer to figure out a title then to introduce my self. I am an Iraq vet with fourteen years of service and forty five months deployed to Iraq as a Cavalry Scout. I denied having PTSD after my first deployment, I was part of the initial invasion and stop loss. It took sixteen months of my life away the first time. I returned to Europe where I was stationed, began drinking and fighting on a regular basis. I was going through the motions of doing company grades and extra duty. To me this seemed normal its what twenty year olds in a foreign country do I was told. Nothing could fead my adrenaline monkey riding on my back and no one could calm the anger that kept clawing out from deep inside.
With in a year after my first deployment I PCS'd to the states and soon enough my life was filled with going to the field every few weeks, drinking and deploying back to Iraq. By 2010 I had gotten married and divorced, deployed again and had a bunch of carpet crawlers running around. For most this would seem like a normal thing but I found my self always angry, having a hard time focusing and not being able to remember the simplest of tasks. I had stubbled with getting an associates degree often having to reread books multiple times for each class.
Never realizing I my self had a problem, sure I had been told once or twice along the way that TBI (traumatic Brain Injury) from IED's (Improvised Explosive Devices) were the causes of my memory problems. So I dealt with it alway denouncing that I was one of them with PTSD. till my son had to see a Dr. about ADHD and ODD. Three minutes into the Dr. visit with the Psycho Therapist he turned to me and asked how long I had been serving for.
It lead me to a heated debate about him thinking I may have PTSD. I went home and my wife confronted me and told me I needed to go back and talk with the DR. about PTSD because she was sure I had it. After a few weeks of me and my wife going at it I returned to the see the DR and we talked and he filled me in all about it and the symptoms. I eventually gave in and contented to see him on a regular basis. He had me start taking a mood stabilizer to help me out.
That has been over a year ago. Since then I have quit drinking and finished my bachelors degree. I am more tolerable to be around, I don't create chaos for those around me any more; it seems that I am able to over come each day, with out wanting to find a way out from it.
