Sufferer Is Five Years Too Little To Heal?

[Deleted member 1860]

You haven't been healing for the last five years. You've merely been in limbo. Healing doesn't just happen over time. PTSD isn't like a cut that heals over time. We need to work on ourselves in order to heal from traumatic events or we will be slaves to the after effects indefinitely.

Welcome to the forum.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome. :)

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

 

[Brad1980]

Welcome to the forum.
I suffered a great deal in my childhood. It was not as extreme as your but it was tough. My first suicide attempt I was 12. Like everyone one else time doesn't heal PTSD. You have an opportunity to reclaim your life on your terms now. It may take some time but you can recover from your injuries. I grew up be blamed for my sisters death. I was told if I was a better child my mother would want to live. At 8 or 9 I remember praying to God to trade me with one of my sisters so my mother would want to live again. It has taken me into my late forties to get the help I needed years ago. The fact that you lived through your childhood says how strong you are. You can get better! Live a happy and free life but it takes some hard work to get there. I ran from my shame and guilt for 4 decades. You can make a different choice than I did. I wish you luck on your journey.
Peace

 

[Pietro]

PLEASE do not tell me to forgive my parents. I do not believe in "forgiveness" in this sense.

Forgiveness is a personal matter. There are benefits to letting go of bitterness, if you can. But there's no forgetting. In fact, trauma recovery is partially about remembering, getting facts straight so that you can see the truth that was too dangerous to see as a child -- that you were not to blame for anything that happened. What blame can you assign to yourself, as a child, for your parent's erratic, inappropriate, and violent behaviors? None. Your parents were responsible for the environment in which you grew-up, and so many other things. Sounds like they weren't very good at this. ;)

Personally, IMHO, if you've just started this process, I think you'll need a long, healthy period of anger at them before you could ever consider forgiveness.

...you can prepare to afford them a hot reception akin to being a PTSD vampire slayer of considerable sophistication and worth.

I love this description. :D