Is it spite?

[WinnieThePoohChris]

I've had a lot of problems, made some good progress in many areas, very little in some.

I find if I'm left alone, not messed with, manipulated, abused, I will be calm, can take and handle a lot. PTSD cups explanation.

When the cup overflows, I can lash out, not in anger more in spite, but I don't feel spiteful. Someone lies to me, I'll lie a little back. Someone hurtful I'll be a little hurtful back. Always a little cannot bring myself to be violent or properly vengeful, cannot help it, happens like a reflex. Tit for tat thing. A one off, even a lot I'll be fine, ignore it most if the tine. The more it happens and goes on the more I want to react.

There is anger when dealing with obstinate and continuous gaslighting, but it's not like that.

Not explained very well, quite simplified for what it is. Wondering if anyone else has experienced similar?

 

[Dark.Green.Feathers]

I get really irritable and snide when my stress cup is fuller. Not cruel or massively unkind, just “prickly”, unnecessarily sharp. Less of a tit-for-tat deal, for me, although I can be a bit cutting, which everyone seems to find a lot softer than me, but I don’t like.

I mostly make frustrated noises with friends, and stupid comments, with my therapist. “Why don’t you try it?”.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Yeah I think "prickly" is probably right, it's coming out wrong though.

I'll give noises a go thank you, waiting for therapy right now but I'll make plenty of stupid comments when it starts!