Is It Time For Me To Go?

[Tinyflame]

Aw dear @Al_Lurker , thank you for your kind words. They mean a lot. :hug:

Actually, my dog does better than I do, lol. I think the difference was, she was 'placed' with us (though we fell madly in love with her at first sight and asked for her :) :inlove: ). Then it went from there.

I can't 'place' myself anywhere though. And I find the difficulty is I don't belong. Or I certainly feel like I don't. It's more than trying to see 'if' I belong', rather 'knowing' I don't. Sort of I imagine how a man feels sent to a breast-feeding group, as a friend of mine said :wideeyed: :laugh: . Of course that's a funny example (and not necessarily a 'negative for men, lol), but rather in all seriousness the analogy would hold. "Cringe-worthy" and depressing. But then again I'm too tired, too busy a day, and probably shouldn't post this. Nothing wrong with the people, the problem is me. The more I try to reach out, the worse I feel. The more I resolve to pusg through it or sit with the feelings, the more evidence to that fact I seem to acquire. But maybe they are 'feelings', and that's all.

I guess what has always amazed me, is that I've never heard anyone mention that 'feelings' go a long way in determining quality of life (to me).

 

[CrazyHorse]

Thank you Junebug, I am glad you understood my point and that my thread was helpful. :) Distancing myself from my trauma by stopping talking about it has led to me not thinking about so much either. It is not dominant in my thoughts and experiences. Thus, there is now room to fill my mind with peaceful, happy stuff instead. :)

 

[Al_Lurker]

.....:hug::):inlove:


I can't 'place' myself anywhere though. And I find the difficulty is I don't belong. Or I certainly feel like I don't....:wideeyed::laugh:But maybe they are 'feelings', and that's all.

I guess what has always amazed me, is that I've never heard anyone mention that 'feelings' go a long way in determining quality of life (to me).

Feelings are what life is, a daily score of music that defines the melody of each of us. I'm sorry yours are of a nature that they are. But someone else wrote here, feelings aren't facts. I hope that you can someday find the means to change the melody that plays as defined by you to a happy tune. Just like your dog has. Life takes us all on a journey, we never know what tomorrow will bring unless we stop looking toward tomorrow and accept 'fate' as being a thing that stops us from becoming more than we are. You belong somewhere @Junebug , you simply haven't found the place that hears your song and sings along with you.


Try to find this video I think you may find it interesting
Daniel Kahneman:
The riddle of experience vs. memory

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @Al_Lurker , as always you are impeccably kind and optimistic. :hug: Funny thing is, I can't even conceptualize much of tomorrow, let alone imagine it different of course. I will definitely check out the link though, thank you. :hug:

It doesn't matter, in the Big Scheme of things, as regards belonging. Some do, some don't. Sometimes I don't want to.

Dear @CrazyHorse , I meant to also wish you the Greatest Congratulations! :tup: :tup: :hug: