Is It Wrong

[bluevamps66]

We've been married for 13yrs. He's always in prison on drugs and everything else though. So its a few months a year for those last 13yrs that he's physically there. In and out sleeping around. God knows what else. The longest periods of time we've been together 9 2'xs. The rest shorter periods. I kick him out drugs/ violence. He's never been the provider so I've been able to do so or he goes to prison X's 28 or he's on drug runs/ sleeping around. Sounds bad right? I know it does but everybody says Im the bad one. Maybe I am. Maybe I do everything wrong. But everything cant be my fault? I dont know anything anymore. All I know is protect my kids thats it

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

You post is titled " is it wrong" ....so you tell me

Is "it" wrong?

Are you different from your mother?



Please be careful

 

[bluevamps66]

Thank you Jline

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

You are NOT the bad one! Why would anyone say that?

 

[bluevamps66]

People do. My husbands friends who I was friends with before we were a couple. My mother in law. I question everything about myself. I've also lost friends for staying with him. I've been told he is a sociopath. Sometimes I believe that is true other times I dont. I have no idea what to believe. My head is getting so dizzy I'm going to quit talking now

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I also wrote a post a few posts up.

take it easy.

 

[Jline]

Don't forget...of course protect your children but also protect yourself. The best way to do that is by continuing to get help. Somtimes we (as painful as it can be) must cut out the negative and ill people in our lives. You will be able to help and protect your children better the healthier you get. Reading all the information on here can be a bit overwhelming but please take the time to do so. I have found it has helped me immensley.