Is there any justice?

pamcoco

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Although I’ve been a member for years, I rarely post. This is mostly because of a constant influx of victimizing incidents, in one form or another, since the 3 unrelated, sexually based crimes I experienced in 2009.These 2009 crimes kicked off severe ptsd, but by now are just some in a pile that became more than I could count.

To give an example, 9 days ago, working in my office around midnight, I heard what I thought were firecrackers from the parking lot. I peaked out to realize it was someone smashing the windows of my car. I intuitively knew he would move from the car to my office windows, so I grabbed my phone and hid while I called 911. I then heard the huge, front windows exploding. The police arrived quickly but did not catch him. After taking the report they left me alone in the office with literally nothing between me/my belongings and the street.

Truthfully, this example is nothing new, it’s just another day in my life since 2009. Notably though, another day without any real justice or help.

After the first attack in 2009, I called 911, and LAPD did not come. They did not come for the following 9 days of calls, until I finally contacted internal affairs, something I learned from TV. Police came, but then refused to take a report. At the time I didn’t know any better and believed them when they said it was too late.

I also lost the case with the medical licensing board, when in 2009, my gynecologist, attacked me during a visit, harming me so badly, I required 10 hours of surgery to repair the damage….

I’m fed up. There’s much I can’t do anything about, but there are some incidents in the pile where I can still take action. So, I am researching and planning the actions I will take.


So here’s my question:

What part, if any, has justice played a role for other victims? Did it aid in restoring a sense of control, healing, faith in others?

To anyone successful, how did you get justice? What aspect of the process was the most crucial towards your healing?

Thanks for your thought on this matter!!!
 
What part, if any, has justice played a role for other victims?
i "won" my day in court. my primary perp served heavy sentences in two states for child sex trafficking. the court proceedings were as traumatic as the original trauma with no respect, whatsoever, for the psychological repercussions of flashback triggers, et al. it was just-ice on deeply festering wounds. i most certainly did not feel like a winner. still don't, nearly half a century later. i don't condone the actions, but i don't believe just-ice system is an effective solution.

but that is me and every case is unique.

steadying support while you decide what is right for you.
 
What part, if any, has justice played a role for other victims? Did it aid in restoring a sense of control, healing, faith in others?

Justice is so hard to have. If it was more freely available I think it would really help (for me anyway - I feel stuck in unsafety without any form of justice)

I don't think I will ever have faith in other people, the criminal justice system, or the state. To know and be around people who are working towards justice, and to take part in that effort always feels kind of healing to me (and nothing else does).
 
Can there ever really be justice for the damage caused by PTSD which doesn’t ever leave you, is constantly there, changes you as a person and therefore your entire life course, of which you only have one?

I don’t think so, and so is it even worth pursuing, knowing that it will cause further trauma to that short life?

I’m not sure.
 
What does justice mean for you?

I never reported anything to the police major trauma wise. Other crimes like hate crime or being burgled, I reported those. Nothing happened though.

What I think would have helped me was an apology. But, never going to get that. So, I can either hold a sense of injustice or find ways to make peace with it.
 
Life isn’t fair. That is hard to accept but it is the truth of the matter. If it was fair there would be no need for this website. Personally, my efforts to seek justice 9 times out of 10 fail. And, I am a pro as I used to practice law. For my own sanity, I usually don’t try anymore except when it comes to protecting future victims.

Most resources for victims are mere window dressing. They are over worked and look for the slightest excuse to not help. Our court system is not about justice, it is about having an orderly society. Courts are about resolving disputes for the benefit of society, not justice. The value is in having disputes resolved with finality even if that is an injustice. Our criminal law system is designed to let 10 guilty go rather than convict one innocent. We still seem to convict more than our share of innocents.

It took me a very long time to understand this as I am a bit of an idealist. But once I did I have been able to accept that bad things happen to good people and that I could tie myself in knots over something or I can let it go and move on. A friend (yes I have a couple) is fond of saying “It is a dog eat dog world and I just got ate”.
 
Lack of justice can be part of the trauma, or at least I feel it is for me. And at the same time I’m open to having my mind changed.

I wish for justice to have happened. Though, I often avoid getting it in order to save myself some peace of mind.

I think in your case, it’s equally complex. Where you might feel cheated by the system, but the system wasn’t fully made to handle things in a way we all love — if that makes sense, or isn’t too vague.

Wishing you well.
 
I did believe in justice. Until I needed it. Desperately. Changed my entire view of this world. I started questioning everything. Now I think I have a pretty good idea of the immense problem we all have with a society based on greed and corruption when it is actually presented as being a society based on caring and compassion. Coming to that in and of itself can be a very large trauma.
 
I did believe in justice. Until I needed it. Desperately. Changed my entire view of this world. I started questioning everything. Now I think I have a pretty good idea of the immense problem we all have with a society based on greed and corruption when it is actually presented as being a society based on caring and compassion. Coming to that in and of itself can be a very large trauma.
Humans are very flawed beings. The world would be a much better place if it was run by little dogs.
 

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