Is this dissociating? i need some help .

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I am losing moments and I feel as if I disappear from my life and do not have a clue where I go but as hard as I try to stay focused and on top of things, my gaps are still catching up with me. I am frankly scared because when I make these mistakes I pay the consequences.

Can anyone relate to this experience? I do not even know if I am on the right forum or not. Caught some huge errors today and cannot remember when I lost focus. It is really scary to me. I lose memory of important things and think at the time I am functioning well when in reality I am losing valuable information to correct the errors.

I really need some opinions and feedback on if anyone else does this and I really hope that I am making sense.:banghead::banghead::banghead:

Do I just have PTSD brain? It is becoming a quite serious concern.

 

[Sideways]

While it does sound like dissociation, it's definitely worth speaking to your T about it, and checking that it's not something else (anything from med side effects to something organic).

Because with milder forms of dissociation, like drivingon auto-pilot, your brain will automatically switch back on if there's a sudden reason to. If it's starting to cause problems, like making decisions or completing tasks in a problematic way, it's either higher on the spectrum, or something else. And either way, it's going to be helpful to ak with your T about how to manage it.

 

[Beans]

Could be dissociation, could be something else. Def check with T or dr though just in case! We need you here nice and healthy!:hug: Hope it gets better.

 

[Justmehere]

Everyone dissociates to some degree, even those without ptsd will zone out at times. For example, many people drive home from work and not remember every mile of the drive.

What you are describing sounds like more than that. Could be dissociation that needs to be addressed in therapy or could be another condition that needs to be checked out medically. For sure talk to a doctor and a therapist about it.

Try grounding, preemptively, throughout the day, and it might help reduce any dissociative events. Also, keep a log of when you notice this happening, and try to see if it happens more when you encounter certain triggers or times of day. This will help your doctor and therapist figure it out more quickly.

 

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I have an appointment in two weeks and will get this checked out thanks

 

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If it's starting to cause problems, like making decisions or completing tasks in a problematic way, it's either higher on the spectrum, or something else.

No it is not interfering in decisions or completeting tasks. I will bring it to their attention to see what they have to say. I am frankly kind of scared.

Try grounding, preemptively, throughout the day, and it might help reduce any dissociative events. Also, keep a log of when you notice this happening, and try to see if it happens more when you encounter certain triggers or times of day. This will help your doctor and therapist figure it out more quickly.

I will try this and see what happens. I have two weeks to get a general idea. Thank you guys for you weighing in to this problem I am having.

 

[Sideways]

For what it's worth - I dissociate more often, and more seriously, when my baseline SUDS are high. If I can keep my basline stress levels well managed, I will have a less overall problem with dissociating, so just focusing on the things that help you regulate your stress may also help.

 

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f I can keep my basline stress levels well managed, I will have a less overall problem with dissociating, so just focusing on the things that help you regulate your stress may also help.

I am not sure what Suds is so can you clarify for me in some detail what this is. I have been under such a long period of time under severe stress so this makes so much sense. I will have to think about what things I could focus on to help me regulate my stress. Now I am not sleeping right for some strange reason.

 

[Sideways]

Suds are just your "subjective units of distress". On a scale of 1-10, where 1 is total nirvana and 10 is a panic attack, how stressed am I right now. Check your suds when you wake up, that will give you your baseline. Then if you notice them going up, you can take action. If you notjce they're getting higher as the days go by, you take action.

Suds are just one method of keeping track of your own stress level from day to day.

 

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Suds are just one method of keeping track of your own stress level from day to day.

Thank you so much for describing SUDs to me. I will be doing that. I think I am a three today. What a good thing to do for myself.

 

[Sideways]

Yep, so because it's subjective, it doesn't matter if your idea of 3 is completely different to the next person's 3. What's going to be important is if you realise at 10am tomorrow when you check your suds, you realise you're suddenly at 7. That's gonna mean take action, because that's when things like dissociation start to get unmanageable.

Suds are one of the handiest habits I've ever gotten into, so happy to share that one:)

 

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That's gonna mean take action, because that's when things like dissociation start to get unmanageable.

Thank you so much, I think this really going to help me