Isolation, Paranoia And Withdrawal

[sarah piney]

I don't know if anyone else feels this. Just lately I feel I am struggling more and more to maintain...

I have found the best way to find friends is to look for spiritual connection first. Also to remember that listening helps with feeling connected rather than jumping in straight away in maybe a counter-phobic way or out of feeling desperate to fit in. Not that I'm there yet-went to a get-together yesterday where I only knew 1 other person - and my husband. Felt deliberately pushed out by 1 person, and welcomed by others. Taking me too long to settle into being ok again, as the bad experience always wants my attention - I think this is due to the Child in me wanting to know why my parents behaved as they did towards me, and my head wondering if the answer lies in why i was pushed out by that one person. Its a tendency i still struggle with, especially as my job is very stressful.

 

[Bradford]

I don't know if anyone else feels this. Just lately I feel I am struggling more and more to maintain...

Blackjack, Just be aware that I looked to you as a reassuring voice. You immediately showed me what a valuable, nice and caring person you are. You were supportive to me in understanding better my difficult love with a person who has PTSD. Just reading what you said here, I want you to understand that I appreciate your kind words and emotional support you gave me. I can immediately tell what a kind and wonderful person you are and you are appreciated.

 

[Blackjack]

Blackjack, Just be aware that I looked to you as a reassuring voice. You immediately showed me what a...

Oh Bradford, thank you so very much for your kind words. They have come along at just the right time I can assure you. I have had a rough few days and feel as if I have driven away two people that I look upon as close friends. Both of them I value incredibly but they have gone very quiet and hardly speak now and I am so very very sad.

I am so pleased though that you felt reassured and emotionally supported by my words. That really does mean a lot to me. I very much like to be there for people and help them. I know that awful lonely feeling of having nobody to turn to and if I can be there then that makes me happy. I am here for you my friend.

 

[Bradford]

Oh Bradford, thank you so very much for your kind words. They have come along at just the right time...

Today/tonight I am very despondent. I am supposed to be the strong one here and she can crush me so easily with just a few words. I will start fresh tomorrow and I am sure be able to cope much better at the start of the day. I appreciate you help... Thank You.

 

[Freedomfighter]

I am currently going through just what you described. I have no "real life" friends. It goe...

When PTSD is a daily companion everything changes. I only lost bad people, but I understand that I will gain what really matters.