It Happened. Now What?

[mytai]

@Britt.f7 I understand that.

I haven't gotten checked yet, still at work. I will have to go later this evening if I can get myself to. I am going to try and locate the number before I leave work for victims services, so I'm ready.

 

[Echo]

Mytai, I just want to say how impressive you are. I don't know how you find the courage to keep going like this, to drive, go to work and to have gone to hospital on your own. You are an inspiration and you truly deserve to finally get the support you need to make yourself safe from this man forever.

 

[mytai]

@Echo Thank you.

 

[mytai]

I've decided that I need to go to the hospital and actually have the exam done. I tried calling that rape crisis line again and the lady kept asking why I couldn't just go by myself, so I hung up. I looked up the number for the victim services in my city, and no one is answering the phone - I don't know if they are always available though. I even tried to call my T as a last resort, but I know she shuts her ringer off after a certain time and so no response from her.

So I guess I'm going on my own again. This time I've got to try and stick it out. But I still have no support, and I'm so scared right now.

 

[Alic3]

Did you end up going? I read through this whole thread and now I care and want to know what happens.

 

[mytai]

I'm going right now.

 

[Alic3]

Good luck :(

 

[StarChild]

Dear mytai, I know, this may sound ridiculous to you, as I'm of course aware, that you're physically on your own. But I'm with you in my thoughts, and I know that others here on the forum will be too! I lit 3 candles for you mytai. You're not allone!

Can you stay in contact with the forum via smart-phone? Just in case you need support...

 

[Alic3]

I'm sorry, that didn't sound very sincere. I just don't know what to say to people, I normally just sit by and let everyone else do the talking. I really do wish you the best though. I can't say how I would feel in your situation, as I have never had an "exam" either.

 

[digger]

I'm really sorry that's the response you got from rape crisis. I hope you manage to go, and to stay, yourself. Maybe when you go asking if there's someone who can stay with you at all times.

 

[mytai]

I just got home from the hospital. I can only get about an hour sleep before I need to get up for work. So I will write a more detailed thing when I get up.

 

[Abstract]

I truly hope this was as Ok as it could be. Or should I see as minimally horrendous as possible. I think you are incredible. I wish your situation was such that this wasn't so necessary. I truly hope there was still enough evidence.

It's only empowering when someone believes you and tries to help,

Exactly. There is nothing as disempowering as asking for help and being rejected. It really is awful.

Unfortunately you are in a situation where you have to find a way past this. You need this to stop and you deserve this to stop. I am so incredibly impressed with your courage and just hope it was worthwhile and that you are safe. really sorry the rape crisis centre were so ignorant and that victims support unavailable. They may be closed as I didn't get an answer to the email I sent on your behalf.

Sending you safety and strength.