Yeah I've been going through a crazy winter, the liquor store is a block away and I work at a licensed restaurant. I don't know how I did it really.
I hope you are doing well. I am going to put this idea out there for what it may - or may not - be worth. My dad used to be a complete tosspot for years. He ended up doing something which he describes as requiring no struggling or counting length of days, months sober, etc. He got a book called "Rational Recovery." He straightened himself out pronto and it's been over ten years. He says he doesn't even worry about ever drinking again because the book taught him how to be free from booze for life. Worked a lot better than the lack of results he got from AA.
I get that. The times I've gone the longest without drinking is without focusing on the last time I had a drink. Counting days like I'm trying to break a record puts more stress on the whole process
