Lilac98
Policy Enforcement
I know rationally it was. I had accepted it was and I have had counselling for it but today I've just had this thought/feeling that it wasn't sa. It might be cause of s situation and the baby seagull dying. And maybe cause I'm still getting nightmares which still aren't making sense.
Oddly enough I still don't doubt the younger me thing (g holding me down, down there feeling) did happen even without memory of it but I think that's cause the sa counsellor believed it was likely real and I just took myself out of it cause it was too difficult.
With the doorway thing although I can't read his mine I know what he was like and there was no good reason why he would stand in the way and just stay pressing his crotch against me whilst I'm trying to push past and just stand there and say nothing and act like nothing happened.
With the hug incident, you don't accidentally pull someone behind you then into you to hug then then accidentally move your hands so you're touching them and then not realise they're trying to pull away from you so you don't let go and then act like nothing happened and just stand there with the same blank look you had in the doorway thing.
Oddly enough I still don't doubt the younger me thing (g holding me down, down there feeling) did happen even without memory of it but I think that's cause the sa counsellor believed it was likely real and I just took myself out of it cause it was too difficult.
With the doorway thing although I can't read his mine I know what he was like and there was no good reason why he would stand in the way and just stay pressing his crotch against me whilst I'm trying to push past and just stand there and say nothing and act like nothing happened.
With the hug incident, you don't accidentally pull someone behind you then into you to hug then then accidentally move your hands so you're touching them and then not realise they're trying to pull away from you so you don't let go and then act like nothing happened and just stand there with the same blank look you had in the doorway thing.