Greetings,
To be honest I'm not completely sure how to start writing this.
I'm a little confused to why I'm having issues with wanting to self harm after so long and without doing so.
I can't help but get stuck in a trance with the thought of the object slicing into my flesh, Nuzzling into it.To see The blood move flow and drip down my flesh it's almost mesmerizing.
The thought is comforting, I wish I could figure out what has triggered my decline in thought and mood of late.
But the more I keep over thinking it the more I'm left clueless.
I know I have self destructive behavior but I don't believe my psychology is trying to trick me into believing I'm a bad person, but I could be wrong since I've slowly been less anti social and gaining a small amount of self esteem.
Any views or tips to figure out a way to stop over thinking would be delightful but regardless it is in my nature to just think and analyze.
Thank You & Kind Regards
To be honest I'm not completely sure how to start writing this.
I'm a little confused to why I'm having issues with wanting to self harm after so long and without doing so.
I can't help but get stuck in a trance with the thought of the object slicing into my flesh, Nuzzling into it.To see The blood move flow and drip down my flesh it's almost mesmerizing.
The thought is comforting, I wish I could figure out what has triggered my decline in thought and mood of late.
But the more I keep over thinking it the more I'm left clueless.
I know I have self destructive behavior but I don't believe my psychology is trying to trick me into believing I'm a bad person, but I could be wrong since I've slowly been less anti social and gaining a small amount of self esteem.
Any views or tips to figure out a way to stop over thinking would be delightful but regardless it is in my nature to just think and analyze.
Thank You & Kind Regards
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