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Chuthulu and Bluecat-- thank you to both of you for sharing.
It's tricky this delayed grief, and it's also an eye opener, as in yes, there are so many losses, e.g. loss of innocence; loss of the life we were meant to have; and yes, a certain feeling of alientation from others. But do I feel very very lucky to have this space here and to not feel alienated. I was genuinley feeling messed up and questioning my reality.
I was also feeling some depression, and then this thing about when some things are triggered, seems to also open up a floodgate for many other losses and grief, which is more than I can handle all at once. Nightmares, but because of my medication, at least it's not sticking to me as badly, i.e., to linger on as harshly for the rest of the day/days.
I'm trying to also come back to adding on to my 'trigger chart", with more clarity, including symptoms and coping plans per each. I want to strive to formalize this better. What would be really cool is if I just recognized some things earlier, and to teach myself that "i don't have to go down that road"-- to help me understand choice and to not bite off more than I can chew when it comes to trauma proce4ssing.
I can't thank you all enough for sharing here and making sense and understanding and relating. It's been hard for me because when my traumas do present it invariabley leads to a sense of loss, of alientation from others, holding in inside. This was amazing therapeutic to just share it here, and know that I'm "not necessarily from a different planet" ;-)
Yes, that internal biography-- one day at a time. I find it challenging and I know it requires patience and some focus.
I'm still battling a flu, but I think I'm on the mend-- I actually did get some winks of sleep last night which was good. The cough is getting better. It's another thngs that's challenging is that stress also does do a number on my body re: fatigue; immune system; arthritus, etc. Today, I relaxed with downloading music that I liked, that soothed and comforted, made me feel relaxed.
I'll return back to this thread later, because I know I want to reflect further on what' been said-- there's some amazing insights coming from you guys.
I wish you all the very best, and man, I have very deep gratitude for your healing kindness, compassion, and understanding.
Than you,
~ Nishkaa
It's tricky this delayed grief, and it's also an eye opener, as in yes, there are so many losses, e.g. loss of innocence; loss of the life we were meant to have; and yes, a certain feeling of alientation from others. But do I feel very very lucky to have this space here and to not feel alienated. I was genuinley feeling messed up and questioning my reality.
I was also feeling some depression, and then this thing about when some things are triggered, seems to also open up a floodgate for many other losses and grief, which is more than I can handle all at once. Nightmares, but because of my medication, at least it's not sticking to me as badly, i.e., to linger on as harshly for the rest of the day/days.
I'm trying to also come back to adding on to my 'trigger chart", with more clarity, including symptoms and coping plans per each. I want to strive to formalize this better. What would be really cool is if I just recognized some things earlier, and to teach myself that "i don't have to go down that road"-- to help me understand choice and to not bite off more than I can chew when it comes to trauma proce4ssing.
I can't thank you all enough for sharing here and making sense and understanding and relating. It's been hard for me because when my traumas do present it invariabley leads to a sense of loss, of alientation from others, holding in inside. This was amazing therapeutic to just share it here, and know that I'm "not necessarily from a different planet" ;-)
Yes, that internal biography-- one day at a time. I find it challenging and I know it requires patience and some focus.
I'm still battling a flu, but I think I'm on the mend-- I actually did get some winks of sleep last night which was good. The cough is getting better. It's another thngs that's challenging is that stress also does do a number on my body re: fatigue; immune system; arthritus, etc. Today, I relaxed with downloading music that I liked, that soothed and comforted, made me feel relaxed.
I'll return back to this thread later, because I know I want to reflect further on what' been said-- there's some amazing insights coming from you guys.
I wish you all the very best, and man, I have very deep gratitude for your healing kindness, compassion, and understanding.
Than you,
~ Nishkaa
