Hello everyone:hello:
I wanted to report in and let you know some good news. As some of you know, I have had an exceptionally difficult couple of weeks for many reasons. I have been sad, panicy, sleepless, off my food and with feelings of utter desperation.
However today I managed to pull it out of the bag. The adult teacher training course that I started in September, finished today! :occasion: When I attended the 3 weeks of assessments in early September, I can remember coming home and saying to my boyfriend "I don't think I can do this, my brain hurts, I don't think I'm smart enough". I persisted and today handed in my complete portfolio with 9 assignments, reflective learning journals, evidence of my teaching session and so on. Not one assignment has been handed in late, and I have obtained top marks for each one as well as for my teaching.
The teacher of the course asked people for positive feedback as well as negative. I shared with a group of 20 fellow students my story, how I came to be in the class and how I thought I had lost everything. People applauded and congratulated me on what I had faced, been dealing with and accomplished. I gave my teacher a card as a personal thankyou and as I left she gave me a massive hug. :Hug_emoticon:She recognised that this was such a significant moment and achievement for me. I really feel that I have got some of "me" back during this course. I hope to start the next level in the new year, but I'm looking forward to a few weeks rest first.
I want to say to you reading this that, I know as much as anyone here how utterly hopeless things can feel and how we can feel helpless, but I have tried to help myself in the past couple of months. I have faced some fears, taken on some challenges and I feel far less hopeless than I did before i started the course - today at least.
There is hope.
I wanted to report in and let you know some good news. As some of you know, I have had an exceptionally difficult couple of weeks for many reasons. I have been sad, panicy, sleepless, off my food and with feelings of utter desperation.
However today I managed to pull it out of the bag. The adult teacher training course that I started in September, finished today! :occasion: When I attended the 3 weeks of assessments in early September, I can remember coming home and saying to my boyfriend "I don't think I can do this, my brain hurts, I don't think I'm smart enough". I persisted and today handed in my complete portfolio with 9 assignments, reflective learning journals, evidence of my teaching session and so on. Not one assignment has been handed in late, and I have obtained top marks for each one as well as for my teaching.
The teacher of the course asked people for positive feedback as well as negative. I shared with a group of 20 fellow students my story, how I came to be in the class and how I thought I had lost everything. People applauded and congratulated me on what I had faced, been dealing with and accomplished. I gave my teacher a card as a personal thankyou and as I left she gave me a massive hug. :Hug_emoticon:She recognised that this was such a significant moment and achievement for me. I really feel that I have got some of "me" back during this course. I hope to start the next level in the new year, but I'm looking forward to a few weeks rest first.
I want to say to you reading this that, I know as much as anyone here how utterly hopeless things can feel and how we can feel helpless, but I have tried to help myself in the past couple of months. I have faced some fears, taken on some challenges and I feel far less hopeless than I did before i started the course - today at least.
There is hope.
