Haven't posted in a while, don't have much to say. My guy isn't responding to my texts. Part of me takes it personally, and part of me knows he's still in a dark place. He barely posts on Facebook, which is the only way I know he's alive. I've only texted him 3x in 2 weeks, to let him know I'm here. He hasn't responded to the last 2.
I'm trying to live my life like it's over. I'm not sure that he'll come back. Even if he does, I know it's never going to be they way I thought, they way we planned.
I'm depressed, it doesn't help that it's winter. I'm hoping as the the days get longer I can get outside more. I get depressed in the winter under the best circumstances, so this makes it do much worse.
Anyway, that's what's going on here. I had a PM from someone who was concerned that I haven't posted recently. It was really nice, I appreciated the concern.
I'm trying to live my life like it's over. I'm not sure that he'll come back. Even if he does, I know it's never going to be they way I thought, they way we planned.
I'm depressed, it doesn't help that it's winter. I'm hoping as the the days get longer I can get outside more. I get depressed in the winter under the best circumstances, so this makes it do much worse.
Anyway, that's what's going on here. I had a PM from someone who was concerned that I haven't posted recently. It was really nice, I appreciated the concern.