Hi,
I have never done one of these before, but I was just diagnosed with PTSD. I have suffered a few traumatic things, but when my first baby dies from SIDS 7 years ago in February, I think I developed PTSD. After all of this time I am mostly pissed off. I can not remember many of the details of the day that he died and the days following. I can not feel those feelings. I have a wonderful new husband and two beautiful little boys, but have a hard time sleeping and have horrible nightmares. I feel emotionally numb alot of the time. I am trying very hard to be a good wife and mother, but sometimes I do not feel in control of my emotions. Sometimes I just want to hide in my bed and cry my eyes out, but am unable to cry. I was 20 when I found out that I was pregnant...unplanned...semi abusive boyfriend. Jonah was born Jan 15, 2000. He died Feb 11, 2000 from SIDS. I found him and did cpr, etc. I am going to a counselor who said that I need to tell my story over and over until I can tell it without physically freezing and shaking. I will try to tell my story later, as I have run out of time and need to get my boys (ages 3 & 2 and healthy!)
I have never done one of these before, but I was just diagnosed with PTSD. I have suffered a few traumatic things, but when my first baby dies from SIDS 7 years ago in February, I think I developed PTSD. After all of this time I am mostly pissed off. I can not remember many of the details of the day that he died and the days following. I can not feel those feelings. I have a wonderful new husband and two beautiful little boys, but have a hard time sleeping and have horrible nightmares. I feel emotionally numb alot of the time. I am trying very hard to be a good wife and mother, but sometimes I do not feel in control of my emotions. Sometimes I just want to hide in my bed and cry my eyes out, but am unable to cry. I was 20 when I found out that I was pregnant...unplanned...semi abusive boyfriend. Jonah was born Jan 15, 2000. He died Feb 11, 2000 from SIDS. I found him and did cpr, etc. I am going to a counselor who said that I need to tell my story over and over until I can tell it without physically freezing and shaking. I will try to tell my story later, as I have run out of time and need to get my boys (ages 3 & 2 and healthy!)
