Just Had A Slight Melt Down

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So many things happening at once. T suggested I go into residential for a While... Thinks I need more intense therapy righ now.

Cottage I was staying at very temporarily.... Landlord just texted me that she didn't realize how high the electric bill was gonna be so she's raising rent next month. I was bin. Move out then anyway but I didn't realize how soon it was.

Niece I'm so close to just moved to another state.

Running out of meds and stupid psychiatrist office won't call me back for an appt.

I was keeping it together until a few minutes ago when a cop almost gave me a ticket for sitting in my car without paying the meter.

I drove off and just started crying hysterically.

Brother called. I answered & told him abridged version of above. He spoke to me about calming down, focusing on 1 thing at a time, I really couldn't say what he was telling me.

I just focused on his voice and the idea that there's Someone out there who knows what's going on.

F#%k my life

 

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:hug::hug::hug: You will be okay in time, take a time out just for you if you are able. I understand. I hope that tomorrow will be a much better day for you.

 

[Heather]

I know about being overwhelmed..... it can be very taxing, emotionally. Take a deep breathe and I agree with your brother, one thing at a time. I find if I break my 'stuff' down piece by piece its much more manageable

Hugs

 

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:hug::hug::hug: You will be okay in time, take a time out just for you if you are able. I understand. I h...

Thank u but... Each day is just worse than the last! Do I ever get to wake up from this nightmare??

 

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I know about being overwhelmed..... it can be very taxing, emotionally. Take a deep breathe and I agree...

Theoretically I agree. Right now I can't think straight at all. Scared to go home. Scared to drive.

I'm just being a crybaby... I'm sure it'll all work out

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Just break things down as you calm and take it one thing at a time. It is going to be rough going for a while so I feel for where you are at right now. Call a crises hot line to get someone to listen to you talk if you can. You could also go into a hospital and tell them how you are feeling and perhaps they will treat you and treat you well.:hug:

 

[mamachick]

I dont think you are being a crybaby. I think you are overwhelmed. Right now, each thing seems really big to you. You have to call the psychiatrist again and again to get the meds. you need. That does sound like your priority. Can you call your T and get in soon? The good thing is that you do know that these things will work out. I know how bad it feels to be overwhelmed and that tomorrow will bring more of the same. Please try to focus on just this moment and what you can do for some comfort.

 

[Heather]

You're not being a cry baby....I've been the myself. some weeks I've called my therapist 3+ times... she earns her money where I'm concerned. if I can make it two days without a meltdown i'm ahead of the game.

It's taken me 7 months to get there. There is a light, I know it looks dim right now but it does exist.

You'll get there.

More hugs

 

[GrayOwl]

It seems so many pieces all go to hell all at once sometimes.
Staying in your car or in your cottage is fine till you get your courage back.
I've gotten good at finding a quiet place (with no parking meters) to park my car and meditate or nap when I need to feel stronger.


Thank you for posting Smile. Sorry you're having a bad day. I really hope things go better for you. :hug:

 

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Thanks all for ur kindness and understanding. I sobbed uncontrollably in my car, then was able to drive "home" 45 min later. Medicated myself and eventually fell asleep.

Today's a new day. Hopefully a better one :)

 

[Geoffry777]

So many things happening at once. T suggested I go into residential for a While... Thinks I need more int...

Someone's already indicated to me that I'm hyper religious I can definitely live with that I won't make any excuses for my belief in the Lord. I think that life revolves around conflicts and when we fight back instead of accept it in a loving way and creates internal Discord. Love yourself and others and for you and I think you'll feel better

 

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Someone's already indicated to me that I'm hyper religious I can definitely live with that I won't m...

I don't bring religion into this. That's another whole chapter better left unattended for now