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Keeping watch at night

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Mee

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night don’t know if o mentioned this before but I have developed a weird thing where I have to keep watch at night if I am not alone ( ie if my partner is here) and I don’t fall asleep first. It's a bit like in a herd of animals where one stays at least dozily awake, watching for predators.

If I fall asleep first its ok. If i’m only with my pets its ok ( in fact my dog sits by me in the night often then which helps) .

I know my house is locked and safe. It's not in any shape or form rational. So why cannot I stop this insane behaviour?
 
@Mee I am sorry that you are experiencing sleeplessness. Is this a normal occurrence...


Since the ptsd inducing incident.

Ah! I pressed post..... Instead of return

Time line is a bi confusing. The incident that I think was my ’cracking point ’ was in August but the situation lasted in a bad was for six months. It could be that the ’thing’ started a year ago really but I cracked in August with a final breaking point? It was a complicated situation with a series of trigger dates coming up any way.

The ’sleep’ issues started in the summer definitely. That's when things hit and I cracked.
 
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Yeah, I do get this.

I started by getting extra security, something that would absolutely alert me to a stranger. I'm a light sleeper, so motion-activated lights works, as well as training my service dog to bark if someone enters my yard.

My cockatiel is a rescue, and she suffers from nightfrights. She is healing well, but my hypervigilance put her on edge, so I was conditioned slowly into appearing calm. Acting it was convincing to my brain. I began to sleep better.

I keep nightlights everywhere. Any movement will be detected by my eyes. Human eyes in low light can only see in black and white -- because you are seeing with a different set of cells than the ones that can see color. But, these cells are excellent at picking up movement, even before your conscious knows (as in, your subconscious will alert you). This can unfortunately trigger hyperventilance in some cases. But if you trust what's around you, it gets easier.

If I'm worried, I close off the room I'm sleeping in, and lock windows and doors. I will keep it perfectly silent if I'm terrified, afraid of even white noise -- but I've learned that white noise actually does help reduce the fear over time. I now keep a fan on. This helps my brain not focus on every tiny noise -- this is an instinct that ALL humans have, PTSD or not, so adding a layer of background noise is actually essential.

If I want to seem menacing? I turn on all lights and let intruders know I'm home. When a lose gunman looking for hostages was being tracked by helicopter, all my neighbors who had guns turned in every light. It's threatening, abd deterred the dangerous intruder. If they aren't afraid, it'll be that much harder to get them. Also, it shows that they have a plan of attack.

I hope that helps
 
I slept last night, I plan to sleep this night.

Rather than white noise I find make voices talking most restful. II think I will start trying to train myself onto white noise instead, thank you
 
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