Sufferer La Lisa

[LA LISA MAGDALENO]

I was sexually, physically and mentally abused before I could talk. I have always had P.T.S.D. I did not know that you can get worse and worse though. I have completley withdrawn from everyone. I do to the best of my ability trust one person.

I do not feel part of the world. I am not part of it. I hide. I have rage, flashbacks, anxiety attacks, panic attacks. I feel as if I want to get out of my body. I hate myself.

I saw my mom stabbed all over her body even her face. She and my father were part of the abuse. She would put us in garbage dumpsters and tell us to hide while she went to the bar.

She and her boyfriend would make us stand against a wall and throw knives around us so close it would catch our hair. She would knock your teeth out and laugh. She used us in Orgys sorry I do not know how to spell it. I am desperate, I am getting worse.

 

[shikira]

Hi Lisa,

I am also new here. You have survived so much and no one can ever know what it felt like for you going through what you have.

In my case, the P.T.S.D comes in cycles, yet everyday is a struggle to manage my feelings and often turn to drink to punish myself. I don't drink heavily, or even have the strong stuff, yet I always feel empty and as if no one can possibly understand what I am going through?. I can relate to the anxiety, rage and depression you have, yet it is the emotional intensity of life itself that I have difficulty with.

I am alarmed by the fact that adults can mistreat their children is such horrific ways and not want to be answerable to their crimes. Have you ever confronted your mother for what she did to you? - it should not ever have happened to you or your brothers/sisters.

If I can pull you out of the dark pit that you are in, then please take my hand! - someone believes in you and cares about you, so never (ever) feel as if you are alone. Being angry is okay and very healthy so use it to good force and throw some sharp darts at the person who made you suffer.