Leaving For The Greater Good!

[oscarmike]

I am new here. Iraq veteran and PTSD diagnosed last year. Not a lot of people to talk to anymore so here I am.

Was wondering if anyone out there has ever felt like leaving everyone behind. Loved ones, friends, and family because of what you are now. Don't mean to come off as selfish or that I am too good. Tired of making everyone around me feel bad.... Just feel like leaving sometimes would be the best for everyone. Married for 12 years and kids and somedays it is too much!

 

[Tim Cake]

Welcome to our padded cell. A vision of personal worthlessness is a hallmark of combat ptsd sufferers. I hit that same brick wall all the time.

 

[Anglesachse]

Welcome to the fold OM brother.

I guess most here have seen that film, and a few even still wear the t-shirt.

Only way to get on and live with it all again is with Therapy. Doing nothing gets you nowhere fast.

Not saying it all goes away, no chance of that, but life does and can get better, but you need to put work into it to get anything out.

You will find plenty of Info to help, and many an ear ready to listen and you will not be judged.

 

[Ned]

Was wondering if anyone out there has ever felt like leaving everyone behind.

This callsign, certainly. And a lot of others, I know. One of the most common reactions.
You will learn to live with it, as will others.

 

[Zipperhead]

I am often caught in that same place. Heading for someplace where no one knows and I can just be a a bum on the side walk that people ignore as they walk by. I don't know if it's just feeling worthless. I actually think it has more to do with punishing myself. Knowing that there is help, but not reaching out for it. But that would also punish my kid, and he doesn't deserve that.

 

[JarHed]

Hey OscarMike

As many have already said, we've all been there. It does seem sometimes that it would be better, but for sure it's not. You're married and have kids they'd be lost without you and kids just don't understand. They shouldn't have to.

You've come to the right place, we're all here to help any way we can. One day at a time.

JarHed

 

[Anglesachse]

I am often caught in that same place. Heading for someplace where no one knows and I can just be a a bum on the side walk that people ignore as they walk by. I don't know if it's just feeling worthless. I actually think it has more to do with punishing myself. Knowing that there is help, but not reaching out for it. But that would also punish my kid, and he doesn't deserve that.

You been ready my diary again Zip?

Totaly agree with you cocker. Well said

 

[Sarg]

OM, don't make any drastic decisions right now. It's a pretty good bet you'll regret them later. Like the guys said, therapy, get your feet firmly planted before going over any cliffs. (It's not the fall that kills you but the abrupt stop at the bottom).

Involve your wife in your illness. See if she will attend any of the classes for wives at the VA or Vet Centers. For better or worse, remember?

You've come to a good place. Good people and healing here. If you need to cut loose with a rant, just put "rant" at the top of the post and blast away. Take care.

Sarg

 

[Jimmy1]

OM, Welcome buddy,

In answer to your question, I think we all have thought about leaving everyone behind, whether it be by just up and leaving, or by taking the suicide road. It's not selfish, PTSD is a very lonely, debilitating illness, but it can get better and can be managed. Once you find the right therapist/medication combination it will become easier to deal with.

Hurting loved ones sucks, and I wish I could say that once you find the right treatment it will all stop, but that would be lying.

Will talk more when I get back, away at the moment

 

[oscarmike]

Thanks.

Today was much better. We all have our good and bad. This thing just seems to make the bad worse!

 

[abnvet]

Welcome aboard. Been there done that before. Comes and goes still. Hang around and read posts from some good people here. HOOAH!

 

[Marine/w/PTSD]

I've moved 3 times in the last 3 years to run away, as a result of feeling like it would be best if i left the people around me.