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Literally living a nightmare.

Paladin_141

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In my teens and twenties I was haunted by a recurring series of nightmares.

Without going into too much detail, they seemed to show changes in the village where I lived and events in my life. Over the years, more and more of the changes I dreamed about have actually happened- structures built or demolished, new roads etc.- and I'm becoming increasingly alarmed.

The overarching theme was of a major war brewing and my part in it. Since I got in country I've seen landmarks that I recognise from the dreams.

The last of them ended with me in charge of a small squad defending a bridge in a village. I could hear armour coming in the dream (and yes, a certain scene in a certain film gave me the absolute abdabs when I first saw it) and then the armour comes into sight and it is a bunch of crumbly old T64s. I remember laughing in the dream because we might be able to win this, then waking up.

By the time we go back to the line, they will have finished building the new bridge across the river by my position.

I know this all sounds very silly, but I can't remember if there were more of those dreams after that. Maybe there was no more of me to dream about.

I don't really sleep anymore. I just stay awake until I pass out from exhaustion, then suddenly it is tomorrow.
 
Have you ever tried lucid dreaming? I took a course decades ago, and it was very cool being able to change the course of a dream. You literally "wake up" in your dream, know that you're dreaming, and have an element of control over it.
 
Yes. I once dreamed I had climbed up onto a platform with the ladder attached to it and when I got up there I looked down and there was no longer a ladder. The platform was just suspended in mid air. I realized that was too weird and I had to be dreaming, so I "thought up" a huge helium balloon with a string. I took the string and floated down.

I don't know how I learned to do that but I've changed outcomes of dreams many times.
 
Have you ever tried lucid dreaming? I took a course decades ago, and it was very cool being able to change the course of a dream. You literally "wake up" in your dream, know that you're dreaming, and have an element of control over it.
I’ve been trying to do this since I was in my teens. I’ve never actually done it successfully. I even bought a pair of glasses that were supposed to stimulate or remind you that you needed to wake up in your dream. I’ve done it for a second. You know like I’ve woken up in the dream and realized I was streaming, but I can never hold onto it.
 
I’ve been trying to do this since I was in my teens. I’ve never actually done it successfully. I even bought a pair of glasses that were supposed to stimulate or remind you that you needed to wake up in your dream. I’ve done it for a second. You know like I’ve woken up in the dream and realized I was streaming, but I can never hold onto it.
I actually took a class--the organization and structure really helped me focus and work on it every night. That was along time ago, though, and I'm out of practice.
 

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