Living In Pain And The Toll It Takes On The Mind

[Ronin]

Yes Mom.

<he says with a Good Boy That Will Do It Anyway face on> :hug:

 

[Deleted member 541]

Honestly, I can't take much more of this pain. I feel like I'm beginning to be crazy because of it.

 

[mamachick]

So sorry She Cat...I am feeling same as you.
Had dr appt yesterday and he told me my emphysema is severe and advance. I had CT 4 month ago and showed nodule and radiologist said to repeat in 3 months. Insurance denied...said will approve in 6 months. Ha..ok
Dogs to vet yesterday and meeting last night. Today I can barely move from pain. Everything hurts to move and fatigue is out of this world. I don't know how people make it to 80 and 90 yrs old.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@brat17 Well, I'm not in the group of wanting to live that long. Actually the way I feel today, tomorrow would be a good day to say. BYE BYE. It's bad when you're driving down the road HOPING someone drives into you

Pain can and does make a person crazy, I know this now!

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Pain can and does make a person crazy

Yes it can!

Hang in there hun and keep looking for that good Dr. S/He is out there. Just keep searching, calling, and going. Tears and desperiation found me a good Dr. Have no idea why he took me with a voicemail starting out with "My last pain Dr released me..." but his office called me back and now I have the best pain Dr in Orlando!

 

[mamachick]

So glad for you lostforgottensoul. I use to take pain meds and I admit that it did help, but it is to the point (where I live) of fear of being robbed for them. I have witnessed this-someone who just left the pharmacy. Its insane. Drs don't want to prescribe and I am to point of not giving a damn...getting use to this misery, and unable to appeal insurance.

Don't give up She Cat. I say that and also feel like you do.

 

[DharmaGirl]

Do you have short term disability at work? It took me 4 months to get SSDI, which is what you would get. SSI is for people who haven't worked in about 6 years and it is about 600-700 a month. If you retire would the Social Security be enough to live on? SSDI is less than your retirement SS. If you could live off SS retirement, there are a lot of helpful things for seniors and disabled people like food stamps and section 8. Honestly, you really sound too sick to work and you could retire now. Would it be that much more money to retire at full retirement age? I hope I don't sound like an ass, I have lots of back issues too and I just can't work because of my PTSD and physical problems.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@DharmaGirl I can't file for SSI because you can't be working at the time. They figure if your working then you are capable of working. If I don't work, then I lose my apartment, can't buy food or pay my bills. It's a situation that I honestly don't know how to change or fix. I am self employed working part time, so no I don't have short term disability.

Still having the same old argument with my dr. Can't get pain meds for the pain in my back /leg. I go to work, and the pain is unbelievable. Went to bed at 6pm last night just to escape the pain.

I'm f*cking exhausted from living this way, and don't know how much more I can take.

 

[DharmaGirl]

I'm so sorry. I really hope the pain clinic can help you. They have helped me a lot.

 

[mamachick]

Well I gave up all pain meds one year ago. I white knuckled it for awhile the best I could. For the past 6 months at least, I get out of bed and leave the house about once a week for no more than 2 hours, usually an appointment. (though I miss many appointments and have to reschedule). I am basically in bed 24/7 and don't care about anything. I only get up to let my dogs out for a few minutes. This is some quality of life....and they wonder why we don't care to be here.

SheCat I sure hope you find some relief somehow. I am angry when I hear of others suffering with pain and having to keep pushing through. I know I did it but my body gave out.

 

[Deleted member 541]

@brat17 Yes, pain will do a lot to the human spirt, and it isn't uplifting I'm talking about. Pain wears on you, makes you exhausted, depressed, and it gets to the point that you feel crazy. I have some good days, mostly bad though. I don't have much hope that the pain clinic will help, but I will go to the appointment. Don't have much faith The my physical therapy appointment will help either, but I will go. When I get no help, and the pain gets to the point that I can no longer tolerate it....... Then I will handle things in my own way!!!!!!

 

[mamachick]

Im glad you are giving it a try. I wish insurances covered massage therapy as that has been helpful, though temporary.