Looking For Courage

[Intrepid]

I've been on an upswing over the last 5 months doing EMDR and working overtime. Then this last weekend my 18 year old daughter quit school and moved out, my boss set me up for failure, and I've had to stop binging on ice cream. Like others with cptsd there's a lot of junk deeper inside that makes these normal stressors triggering. That part of me that was waiting for me to fall apart is saying "see, I told you so". I'm afraid of losing my progress, and the processes I've developed seem to be no longer working. There are some things I've held on to that gave me stability, but can I trust them now?

 

[EveHarrington]

Maybe you're overdoing it? :hug:

 

[LateInThe Day]

I know what you mean. I'm not the most experienced in this area, haven't had EMDR and of course everyone's different, but for me I've found that although I often feel like I've lost all/most of my progress at times like this I realize afterwards that I'm still in a completely different place. Both in my head and in my outlook. It really, really doesn't feel like it at the time. I often tell myself that recovery can feel like 2 steps forward one step back, but it's actually just that the little steps back can feel big and scary at the time they're happening. Perhaps this is similar for you, perhaps not. I often forget to look after myself at these times and binge eating is a classic fallback for me too. If old processes aren't working, perhaps it's a chance to try some easy, safe, new processes to see if they help. Take some extra care of yourself - rest, eat healthily, get some fresh air, all the usual. You deserve it. Good luck.